[--=Playing The Femme Fatale=--]

2004-05-28T16:28:00.000+08:00

Oh my lord!~

HE msged me.
Oh god.

But,its a forwarded msg la.
No biggie.
Damn.

Here goes.

'The spaces between ur fingers were created so dat another person's fingers will fill them in.Hope you found the hand that u're meant to hold on to forever.'

Err.Lame.
Heh.

K go.

2004-05-28T02:44:00.000+08:00

I missed you,bitch!~

2004-05-28T02:23:00.000+08:00

Submittin dis picture out of boredom(Think i've posted dis b4).Coz fana commented sumthin.Here goes.

'hey..aku suker nie pic macam..kitorang kat resort..n i seriously think jah n dinna shud be inside..n kau nyer muker..jgn step...VOGUE-argh...'

Wakakakaka.Had a late nite convo wif her.Funny as always.Crapped as well.

Oh well,am on the fone wif nasha,zul,yasir and serena.
Nostalgic.Sigh!~
Missed them.

Alrite.Shahila out for now.

2004-05-27T15:54:00.000+08:00

*~Friends.I love them.~*

So i had a very early mornin convo with a close guyfren of mine.
Watched the UEFA Champion's League Finals in the wee mornin.
Hence,i thought why not i msg him up and talk about the match.
N yeah,he replied.
It meant that he was also watchin it.Heh.
We talked bout alot of things.
So we decided to converse thru the fone.
Alrite.We did.

Surprisinly,we came out with alot of topics.
From the match,to bfs/gfs,new friends.
N wad really amazed me was,he still asked me about HIM.
Said sumthin like,'So kau amcm?Hardy amcm?'
I was like,errr.K nvm.

Sigh~Everybody knows i am still not over HIM.
Tsk.
Even my siblins.
If there are any advertisements of couples on the telly,they will go like,
'Ahhhhhhhh!~Tu kakak dgn Hardy!~'
Errr.Rite.
Bah!~

So you all can jolly well see my situation.
Anyway,i need cash.
This saturday i'm goin 2 Haqeem's bday party over at his place.
He's turnin 2.
Heh.
I think i'll juz give him cash.
Aint got time 2 get a present.Heh.
Unless of course sum1 wants 2 accompany me.*smiles sweetly*
But then again,forget it.

You know wad?I am dead famished.

Till later.

2004-05-27T02:10:00.000+08:00

-=Its killin me=-

Everything seems to bore me these days.No idea why.
Maybe,i'm juz too difficult to impress.Heh.
Ok,i seriously need to get my sleepin pattern right.
I am like one hell of a lost child.
You know,i came to realise that i need rules.
I live by rules.
I need sumone 2 nag at me.
I need sumone 2 remind me.
Sigh!~

I am not an automatic kinda person.
Sad but true.
These days,i usually sleep my way thru in the afternoon.
From 2.30pm rite up till 6pm.

I hate my life now.

I need to talk to HIM.
But at the same blardy time,i cant make myself to do it.
Reason?Errr..Maluuuu.
Sigh!~
Stupid me.Becumin a nitwit.

Eh,why cant HE just msg me up?
Alrite.Nevermind.

Hmmm.My mind's blank now.
Get back later.

Adios.

2004-05-26T00:31:00.000+08:00

Mp3:Sonata Musim Salju
Artist:Hazami

Maybe it wasnt meant to be.Or was it?
Maybe HE'S juz bullshittin.
Period.
Maybe i'm juz wastin my time?
Maybe i'm juz havin false hope?
Maybe i'm juz plain stupid?

Maybe..Juz maybe.

Remember-->1)What u give is what u get.
2)What goes around,comes around.

End.

2004-05-24T01:27:00.000+08:00

Mp3:Still Loving You
Artist:Scorpions

Still Loving You.For HIM.Love,ya!~

Time, it needs time
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, only love
Can bring back your love someday
I will be there, I will be there

I'll fight, babe, I'll fight
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, only love
Can break down the walls someday
I will be there, I will be there

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall so strong
That I can't get through
Is there really no chance
To start once again
I'm loving you

Try, baby, try
To trust in my love again
I will be there, I will be there
Love, our love
Just shouldn't be thrown away
I will be there, I will be there

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall so strong
That I can't get through
Is there really no chance
To start once again

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Yes, I've hurt your pride and I know
What you've been through
You should give me a chance
This can't be the end
I'm still loving you
I'm still loving, I need your love
I'm still loving you...

I shall wait.

2004-05-22T01:04:00.000+08:00

Mp3:In My Place(Used 2 set this as my ringtone.n HE called.Sigh!~)
Artist:Coldplay

Feelin better rite now.Hmmm.I got to hear HIS voice.So happy.
HE still sounded as kental as eva.LOL!~
God!~Help me!~

Shoot me.any1!~

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
you see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
if you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you
-Barry Manilow-

2004-05-21T02:04:00.000+08:00

Mp3:Always Be My Baby.
Artist:Mariah Carey.(HE sang me this song.Ages ago,of course.*smiles sweetly*)

Oh god.This is gettin worse.1st HE was said to be attached.N now?Wad?Single?
Sigh!~I missed HIM.Ok.Let me get this str8.I dunno but these days,i kept
imaginin me n HIM 2gether.As in,goin out 2gether,getttin mushy n stuff.
I aint wanna elaborate further.U people r old enuff to understand.*chuckles*
Sigh!~Dun blame me aite.

So yeah,HE,for the 1st time in 2 months,came online in IRC.
U know,when i saw his nick,my heart skipped a dozens of beats.
Is that wad u call love?Fucked it alrite~!
Sigh!~

A girlie of mine is quite in contact with HIM.Its easier this way.Heh.
HE'S doin alrite,she said.Still like dulu.Hah.

Wadeva.

Sampaikanlah salam cintaku padanya,
Walaupun terluka namunku merindu.
Kerana cintaku tiada akhirnya,
Walaupun kau telah menghancurkannya.
Sampaikanlah salam cintaku padanya,
Walaupun sengsara namunku masih sayang.
Kerana cintaku mewangi dan harum,
Walau tercampak di mana jua.
Andaiku tiada, andaiku pejam mata,
Biarku abadi, cinta yang setia ini.
Biarpun kau jauh, sambutlah salamku,
kerana aku masih menyayangimu.
Tidak pernah aku membenci dirimu.
-Alleycats-

2004-05-16T03:23:00.000+08:00

Ex and Beau

1) What will u do wen u bumped into ur ex &
his/her current beau on e street?
->I cant face HIM.Period.*covers face*

2) WHen u're in e train & happen to notice that
ur ex & his/her beau was snuggling with each
other & u r jus sittin directly opposite them,
what will u do?
->I will have detected them way b4 i enter the train.*smiles*

3) How will u feel in e presence of ur ex?
->Uneasy.I love HIM,still.*flutters eyelashes*

4) How do you feel towards ur ex's gf/bf ?
->Well,she's definitely 1 hell of a lucky gal.*looks down*

5) What if ur ex's gf/bf is ur bestfriend?:
->Never.Impossible.*smiles evily*

6) Will u hang out wiv ur ex's gf/bf (if at any
chance)?
->Yeah.No harm.

7) Wat would you do if u c ur ex wiv his/her
beau?
->I'll make sure i stalk them.Heh!~

8) Do you normally still keep in touch wiv ur
exs?:
->How i wish!~*sobs*

9) Do you feel threatened wen u're in e presence
of ur ex's beau?
->No la.

10) How do u feel wen ur beau starts talkin abt
her/his past?
->I'm single.

11) How do u feel towards ur beau's ex?
->Nothin.

12) Willing to make friends wiv ur beau's ex?
->I'm single.

13) If u c ur ex being much more happier wiv
his/her current beau, how will u feel?
->Sad.Coz i couldnt provide HIM wif enuff TLC.*sighs*

14) What if ur beau's ex wanna make out wiv
him/her?
->Eh..I'm single la siak.

15) What if someone has eyes on ur beau?
->Ok.My beau is David Beckham.Every1 loves him.:)

16) When u're out chillin wiv ur beau & his/her
ex or palz bumped into u two, ur beau
immediately let go of ur hand. How will u feel?
->Err..We're thru!~

17) Any jealousy along e way wen dere's any
presence of ur beau's ex?
->Maybe.

18) Any jealousy along e way wen dere's any
presence of ur ex's beau?
->No ah.

19) Will u b wiv someone wiv 20 to 30 over++ or
more exs?
->Tsk.Hopefully not.

20) If ur beau had a dirty past wiv his ex do u
mind?
->No.We'll get dirtier!~LoL~!

2004-05-15T02:38:00.001+08:00

Mp3:Kisah Kau Dan Aku
Artist:Alleycats

Feelin melancholy doesnt help much.Juz makes it worse.N the most pathetic thing is,
i cant seem to be able to do anythin about it.I think i need to impede this feelin of mine.

Nirvana.That was the state i was in 9 months ago.We had a strong nexus.Neither
me or HIM can deny that.Is it me who is bein too mealy-mouthed about my feelins?I mean back then,i was quite transparent with HIM.But since we got saperated,i'm not too sure
whether i can pour all that is buried inside me to HIM.The feelins,i mean.

I ~~was~~ am fascinated by HIM.HIS way of doin anythin and everythin.

Love is an enigma.For cryin out loud,I am nonplussed.

Now I got a reason
Now I got reason
and I'm still waiting
Now I got a reason
Now I got a reason
to be waiting
-Sex Pistols-

2004-05-13T03:42:00.000+08:00

I'm Speechless.

2004-05-13T02:55:00.000+08:00

Mp3:So Confused
Artist:2Play Feat Raghav & Jucxi

It's been awhile,aint it?Oh well,my darlin,dearie pc was down wif a 'flu'.All thanks to
the Sasser Worm,or is it Sissy?Or Sassy?Hey,u know wad?I dun give a flyin saucer,anyway.
Nothin much happened durin my 'vacation'.I am still insane as eva.Missed HIM so much
these days.N i am gettin sick of dis skin.Need 2 change it.FAST.

As u can see,its already 3 in da mornin.N i'm still online.Fucked up.
Anyway,life's a whore.I am still stuck at home.Tried out new stuff.Called FAG.
Heh.Go figure wads dat.LoL.Hmmm.Meet new peeps.Real crazy ones.Kinda nice acually.
I need to be a bad gal.4 once.I mean,i've been a gd gal all these years.Sigh.

Alrite.I wanna have a very early convo wif 2 of my dearies.Take care.N yes!~
b4 i go,DID U GUYS CATCH 'THE REAL BECKHAMS'?
OH MY GOD!~DAVID IS GORGEOUS!~
N 1 more,the Rebecca Loos story,it juz blew me away.Jus imagine,david beckham sms-ing u.Gosh.Hmmm.As 4 me,Becks' msges or Hardy's msges?Hmmmm.I'll stick wif Hardy's.
Heh.

Ok.I'm off.

2004-05-12T00:35:00.000+08:00

Elegance Is An Attitude.

2004-05-12T00:32:00.000+08:00

Testin...Testin...

2004-04-30T16:03:00.000+08:00

Mp3:In Da Club
Artist:Lima Posen

◄◄◄◄◄◄◄◄◄◄ I Was Like 1 Hell Of A Sick Puppy ◄◄◄◄◄◄◄◄◄◄

U know...I was readin my archieves...N i managed 2 conclude sumthin...~~Most~~All of my posts were bout HIM....
At least there MUST be sumthin bout HIM...Ishk!~I was kinda bored readin them...I mean...All bout HIM???
Well...I dunno....Eeeeee..All bout HIM???Jelak la siakkkkkk!~

K da...Aku nak tido...Ngantok...K bye!~

2004-04-30T01:50:00.000+08:00

Mp3:Yeah!~
Artist:Usher Featurin Lil Jon & Ludacris

Nasib baik aku blum maki hamun ni blogger.com......I couldnt logged on into my account...It was stated dat....
WRONG PASSWERD..WTF?!~@!##$#%#@!~

But hey...As i was bein a brilliant gal dat i always am...I managed 2 log in..Dun ask how...Only professionals know!~
Wakakaka..Ok....I am a lil drained out 2day...Went out wif a gf of mine...Real havoc....Aint wanna elaborate though...
Malas ah eh...

I guess...I need 2 u know..Clarify sum stuff here...Bout HIM gettin engaged...Hahahahaa...
Actually...I was kinda....Surprised...A lil kekek also....I mean...HIM,gettin engaged?????
Reality check!~LOL~!
U know...If its REALLY true....Then ok lor.....Happy 4 him liao...Wakakaka...Mcm real ajer aku siak!~
Oh well...
Anyways...I was thinkin bout wad the gal who claimed 2 get engaged 2 HIM said....
'Eh..nanti June aku nak tunang tau....'
'Kau dtg jer ah kat rumah Hardy..Nanti aku ader...'

EH WOMAN!~SINCE WHEN EH...AN ENGAGEMENT CEREMONY IS HELD AT THE GUY'S PLACE????
DA APASAL?BUANG TEBIAT???

But cum 2 think again...These days...Ppl can do anythin..Sigh!~
Hahahahah....Wadeva!~
Guys...I will be juz fine....He's juz engaged...Wakakaka...Can putus wad?......Eh siak aku!~
But seriously.....I still will love HIM,though...=D..HE can get engaged..HE can get married...
Aper aku kesah???

Sigh...Nvm...School's gonna start real soon....Gonna meet new ppl...*ehem2*
Ahahahha...Meet new ppl means meet HUNKS ahhhhh...LOL!~
Eh...Guess wad?Now...I am frigginly interested in dread lock fellas....Wooohooooo!~~
They look really adorable..=D

N yah!!!!!2 Nadiah...Thanks 4 taggin...I am not so a real fan of Baihakki khaizan ah...He too tall siaaaa!~
Wakakakak..Sori eh fana...Gotta kutok him 4 a while..=D
Hmmmmm.....To Darn....Dun worry,sis....Its not even confirmed whether HE'S gettin engaged...Even if HE is....
Its not gonna make any difference...HE'S still not talkin 2 me...HE still hates me..So.....Yeah....=D

Ahhhhhhh...Its nearly 2 in da mornin...Missy gotta haf her beauty sleep,guys....
So....Till later,my love......

www.i.still.love.u.hardy@loveland.com.uk
----------=====Te Amo.Ahora Y Por Siempre.=====----------

2004-04-29T02:19:00.000+08:00

Mp3:Nothin

Hey..Dis is Baihakki Khaizan...Dun believe?Kau peh pasal ahhhhhhhhhhhh!~LOL!~
Oh well..Shahila is bz slackin..She asked me 2 write in...Shahila n me r REALLY gd frens,u see...
She tells me all her problems...Regardless of race,language or religion..Opps..I mean..Regardless of anythin...
So....I heard she is still not over HIM...She told me 2 post a song..Here goes...

Song:Whole Again
Artist:Atomic Kitten

If you see me walking down the street, staring at the sky and dragging my two feet, you just pass me by,
It still makes me cry but you can make me whole again.

And if you see with another man laughing and joking making the best of this i can, i wont try to put you down , baby i still want you around, 'cos you can
make me whole again.

Looking back on when we first met, i can not escape and i can not forget, baby you are the one you
still turn me on, you can make me whole again.

Time is layin heavy on my heart seems i've got too much of it since we've been apart, my friends
make me smile if only for short while, you can make me whole again.

For now i'll have to wait, but baby if you change your mind don't be too late, 'cos i just can't
go on, its already been too long, but you can make me whole again.

wooooooooooooooooooooooo

ooh, baby your the one, you still turn me on, but you can make me whole again.

As usual..Dat is dedicated 2 HIM..
N i heard as well...HE is gettin engaged...How cool is dat??Oppps...Sorry ila..:(
I mean...U gotta be happy 4 dat fella...U know wad i mean,pumpkin?
Nvm...Maybe the news was juz a hoax....Alrite...I got 2 get goin....
Take care,girlie...See u soon enuff......

2004-04-26T23:43:00.000+08:00

Mp3:Eh Ah Eh Ah Tak Takot Tak Takot(Techno Methalize)
Artist:Haf No Idea...Sum Mats I Think...

~_______________Mats & Minahs_______________~

Let them see that this world is
not theirs to conquer,and taperism is not sumthin
they shld follow from their bro's or even sis's.

Mats & Minahs are major laughing
stocks.Gold Hair,Armani Hairstyles,All-
Blacks,Gucci or LV immitations,prolly bought at
bugis and slinged very high above the hips.The
new trend would be 3/4 pants,which looks like
girls 3/4 pants,didn't know Mats are turning gay
too,For the Minahs,with their "nyek nyek nyek"
kinda voice,screaming"ey kimeq,kong ajar arh
sachok hari tu!"Can they please just realise they
are actually an eyesore and the thrash of community.

Hair always rebonded,white cheap
sandals,black 3/4 pants,tight ones,which make
them look "sek",which is prolly sexy to them,and
and black or some tight sexy top which they
might think they look good on. M&M Language:
Romance---Romance Sachok---Handsome as Berg---
Handsome also Sachok---Jambu as Jamz---Jambu also.

And alot more words which you possibly can't
think off.I'm sure you guys seen,touch,felt or
anyhows knows how or what they are.This movement
is reachin out in other forms like
Hiphop,Ska/Punk/Skinhead so pls stand up n say
no 2 it.if you all are against of THE MINAHZ &
THE MATZ..................

Kwang kwang kwang!~
I got dat chunk of werds frm my frenster account...Really true...N surprisin...FUNNY!~
Oh well...Mats & Minahs....Dun be kental laaaaa...

2004-04-25T21:10:00.000+08:00

Mp3:All That She Wants
Artist:Ace Of Base

[---------------Memorable Nite--------------]

Here r the pics i took durin last nite's pit...Jam's b'day pit......Its REALLY fun ah....
The food were great as well..Eh jam,bilang mak kau...terima kaseh eh....Sedap mee dier....LOL...=p
Enjoy...*winks*

Ahhh...Dis is the pic of the 4 of us...Part of the Wu-tang Clan...I am...Errr...Wif specs laa...Cannot
see clearly siaaaa...Hehehe..

Ni couples' pic...Jam n mabok...Kak Jal n Abg Is...Hheheheh...Jam senyum bkn main lebar...Suker la 2
bergambar dgn si diaaaa...LOL....Eh Jam..Baju kau ader no.56....Hehehe..Style!~

Mkn...Enjoy ehhh....Bismillah...Kauuu...Pic punyer la tak gelapppp...Chisssss!~

Ahhhhh....Dis pic was taken biler tgh mendak giler babi nyer sak...Tinggal aku,fana n si mat government
2 ah.....So fana amik kan pic kiter 2...Boring sakk..Eheheh....N bro...Muker takmo stress k...
Nanti bole call matair kau tu...LOL!~=D

So dats bout all la eh...Aku tgh takde mood....I'm havin a minor insomnia...But then again...I am sleepy...
Sigh!~Anyways...Bueno Nocheas!~

2004-04-22T23:22:00.000+08:00

Mp3:Snake
Artist:R.Kelly

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!-----Great Outin!~-----!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ish.....Wad a tirin day....When out wif a galfren of mine.....Did alot of walkin...N talkin..N crappin....
Hah!~N damn!~
I was soooo freakin close 2 gettin dat Puma sling.....Tsk!~
Nvr...2moro meetin another galfren of mine...LOL!~
So can get it la besok........

Actually i didnt brought along much....Juz a piece of the blue note n a couple of purple/green ones.....
N yeah...I brought only a portion of my pay....2moro then can bring more la.....Sigh!~
Confirm finish nyer....Argh!~Dats the thing bout me...Cannot tgk duit...Dpt duit jer,wanna blanjer....Ish..Ish...Ish...

Ok...I hav a very comical or should i say.....Stupid incident?Oh well...U be the judge...
Anyways...I was on the train wif my girlie la....I looked kinda shagged already...Been out since 12pm...
So yeah...Finally boarded the train at ard 7pm....Goin back home....
Then as usual....The city hall is very crowded....So i had 2 elbow my way thru the peepz...Then there were dis 2
MATS la...Coz i always look at the ends of their trousers...So yeah...Confirm 100% mat...
But 1 of them had dread locks....I admit...He's a good-looker...=D
So i was feelin all tired...Then the 1 w/o the dread,took out his 3200 hp...
I thought he wanna call sum1 la..
Then guess wad???????
He was actually tryin 2 take my pic siaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....WTF!~
Coz he was like...'Tgk la sini....Senyum sikit.....'
I was....Errrrrr.......No!~
Hahahahaha!~He kept makin noises 2 like kira mcm catch my attention sak.....Giler siol!~
Then the dread guy pun 1....Suroh his fren 2,amik pic aku lagik skali...Total...3 times they took....
Wah liaooooooo......K-siao siak!~
Ok la...Dorg 2 mmg cute la....But...Haiyoh....Got any better ways or not????
Ishk!~
But then again....I still love HIM la.......

I dunno till when i can hang on....Eh da ah eh....I dun wanna be sad over dis thingy...

N yeeessssssssssssssssssssssaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!~
FANA NUTCRUNCH....She managed 2 get into NAFA.............
I'm so proud of u girlie!~Muackazations!~
N she also asked me 2 tag a pic of her family n her....
She very sweet there siaaaaaaa..*winks*
Enjoy......

She's in the extreme rite...In black....The 1 yg sweet2 tu la...Yg jambu2 jugak...*winks*

2004-04-22T01:24:00.000+08:00

Mp3:Mandy(Tapi i wanna pandai2 tukar ah...change 2....Hardyyyyy...LOL!~)
Artist:Westlife(Kekasih lamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa)

Hardy

I remember all my life
Raining down as cold as ice
A shadow of a man
A face through a window
Crying in the night
The night goes into

Morning, just another day
Happy people pass my way
Looking in their eyes
I see a memory
I never realized
How happy you made me oh Hardyyyyyyyyy

Well you came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Hardyyyyyy
Well you kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you today, oh Hardyyyyyyyyyyy

I'm standing on the edge of time
I Walked away when love was mine
Caught up in a world of uphill climbing
The tears are in my mind
And nothing is rhyming, oh Hardyyyyyyy

Yesterday's a dream I face the morning
Crying on the breeze
The pain is calling, oh Hardyyyyyy

You came and you gave without taking
But I sent you away, oh Hardyyyyy
You kissed me and stopped me from shaking
And I need you...

*Terima Kasehhhhhh(Step ally cats!~)

2004-04-21T00:18:00.000+08:00

Mp3:I'm Good
Artist:Blaque

**********+++++Boredom Can Drive You Up The Friggin Wall+++++**********

Sigh!I am totally washed out 2day...I dunno wads the coz of it....I slept like a baby dis evenin...
LOL...N when i woke up...I decided 2 u know conteng2 on a scrap piece of paper...
N the thought of HIM came rushin into my head...N guess wad i managed 2 choked out within those 10 mins?
Ok...U ~~can~~ DUN laugh....

I was DAYDREAMIN bout me n HIM...U know...Like wad if we r fated 2 get married(Like real only!)....
So...I was like...Ah huh!~
Lets think of our CHILDREN'S name...Wakakakakakakakak...Prasan nak mampos!!!!~~~~
But anyway...I continued wif those names...N here they r....

PS:We decided 2 have 'Shardy' as our family name...(konon2 mcm org putih la gituk..ader surname...LOL!)

1st child-->Dhani Bashir Shardy(Boy)

2nd child-->Sofia Natreesha Shardy(Girl)

3rd child-->Meraj Herman Shardy(Boy)

Kwang kwang kwang!~Sum of the names r ppl i know...I juz find their name unique ah...So korg...Pinjam eh...
LoL!~

Wowwww!~Hhahahhaahah

I ~~hate~~ love u....2 who eva la eh...i juz love u...=D

Lalalalalallalalalalal!~

2004-04-20T16:10:00.000+08:00

I ~~LOVE~~ HATE YOU....

2004-04-20T01:49:00.000+08:00

Mp3:Sugar Sugar
Artist:Errr...Dunno...Oldies song ah....

-=I Am So Dead=-

[THESE ARE THE LIST OF THINGS I WANNA GET DONE AND OVER WITH]

1)LOSE MOREEEEEEEEEEEE WEIGHT...(I've lost 1 n half kg..Heh)
2)REBOND MY HAIRRRRRRRRRRR....(Fuck ah...My hair has turned 'nasty' after i dyed it....Sigh)
3)PRAY 5 TIMES A DAY.....N ATTEND MY QURAN-READIN SESSION REGULARLY....(Sigh!)
4)SAVE MORE CASHHHHHHHHHHHH...(School's gonna start soon....Need 2 buy my necessary stuff)
5)GET MARRIED.....(Aper jer Shahilaaaaa...Takde matair,takde aper...nak kawin eh....da apasal??GATAL????!!!!!)
6)BUY THAT GUESS WATCH I'VE BEEN CRAVIN FORRRRRRRRR....(I gotta suck-up 2 abah 4 this..Heh)
7)STOP THINKIN ABOUT HARDY.....(Sengajer letak no. 7...Konon2 nak remind-kan of Beckham ah kiraaaaa...LOL)
8)STOP THINKIN ABOUT HARDY.....
9)STOP THINKIN ABOUT HARDY.....
10)SPEND AS LITTLE TIME AS POSSIBLE ON THE NET....(I'm becumin a internet addict b4 i know it...Sigh!)

[THESE ARE THE LIST OF THINGS I HAVE 2 A-V-O-I-D TOTALLY]

1)LISTENIN 2 SAPPY MALAY SONGS...(Which will only make me think bout HIM)

----------------------------------------Transmission Dead------------------------------------------

Eh fuck laaaaaaaaaaaa...I missed HIMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.........................
Babiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.......Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh............................

PS:I saw his recent pics last nite...Oh my God...He got me wantin him EVEN MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE......Heh!~

2004-04-19T02:20:00.000+08:00

aku

2004-04-19T02:11:00.000+08:00

tgh buang tebiat

2004-04-19T01:48:00.000+08:00

Your True Nature by llScorpiusll
Username
The quality that most appeals to you:	Creativity
In a survival situation, you:	Cleverly trick your attacker
Your hidden talent is:	Seeing the best in others
Your gift is:	Artistic talent
In groups, you:	Get the party started
Your best quality is:	Your protectiveness
Your weakness is:	Your overbearing nature

Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

I am ARTISTIC?????AWESOME~~!!!!

2004-04-19T01:31:00.000+08:00

Sugar Sugar

Sugar
Oh Honey honey
You are my candy boy
and you got me wanting you

Honey
Oh Sugar sugar
you are my candy boy
and you got me wanting you

I just can't believe the lovliness of loving you
I just can't believe it's true
I just can't believe the wonder of this feeling too
I just can't beieve it's true

Sugar
Oh honey honey
You are my candy boy
and you got me wanting you

Ohhh
Honey
Oh Sugar sugar
You are my candy boy
and you got me wanting you

When I kissed you boy I knew how sweet a kiss could be
I knew how sweet a kiss could be
Like the summer sunshine, pour your sweetness over me
Pour your sweetness over me

Ohhhhh
Sugar
Pour a little sugar on me honey
honey honey
Pour a little sugar on me baby

I'm gonna make your life so sweet!
Yeah yeah yeah!

Pour a little sugar on me honey

Ahhhh
Sugar
Ah honey honey
You are my candy boy
and you got me wanting you

Ohhhh

Honey honey
Sugar sugar
honey honey
sugar sugar
You are my candy boy

2004-04-19T01:28:00.000+08:00

Mp3:Will You Love Me Tomorrow
Artist:The Shirelles

<---------------I Missed School!--------------->

Life can nvr get any better,can it?????
I think i'm losin my touch on things.....Even my family realised....Damn rite???
Sigh.....I REALLY need 2 get my ass back 2 school,ironically....
Oh well......I cant do anythin...Sumtimes.....I I will juz imagine myself gettin ready 4 school all over again....
I was always the freakin 1st 1 2 enter the shower...N u know...Now....I wouldnt mind at all if i were 2 be the
1st 1 again......

2day,I juz feel like reminiscentin my gd old days back in '03....
So yeah......Everyday....I will be in school rite on the dot...Heh...Rite,Darn?
She was my partner in crime...We went 2 school practically 2gether everyday....
N when we finally set foot on the school's premises...The bell will ring...Sumtimes we were late...
Our 2 faces(lovely) were very recognised by the Dicipline Masters....
We were famous 4 not tyin up our hair(I had super,silky(heh)long hair back then)
And also....4 wearin really,really low ankle socks...Hah....

N u guys wanna know sumthin?Even the bangla security-guard became fond of us...
We talked like very2 old frens of his.....Heh

N of coz...Durin classes...My cellphone will vibrate.....1 message received......
Alahaiiiiiii...Sigh....Frm HIM la.....Sumtimes if i was havin a rough patch in school...
HIS messages always put a smile on my face...Always.....
Eh wait...Y in the name of George W. Bush am i talkin bout HIM????
Sigh...

I dunno....I really wanna get HIM outta my head...But...There will always be sumthin dat is connected
2 HIM...I think he likes seein me sufferin like dis...Rite Hardy,Dearie????
Ahhhhh...Nvm.......He wouldnt care.....

But Hardy...I love u...U dumb-ass!!!!!!!!

2004-04-16T23:46:00.000+08:00

Mp3:Jailhouse Rock
Artist:The Late Mr Elvis Presley

[----------+++++I Met My Dearies!!!+++++----------]

Yak Allahhhhhh....Had an outin wif the ladies...It was freakin kecoh seyyyyyyy....
K-siao sakkkk...LOL....We went 2 Long John...Dats the place we've been goin since 4eva....
N so....We talked...N talked...N crapped...N crapped....Gosh....
I missed them...Really....
Sigh...Jam couldnt make it...Dunno when i can see her again....Ishk...

Dats all...I'm LAZY 2 type any further....
N thanks 2 the peepz dat tagged....
My replies:Shac-->Yeah......He's my 1st love...N yes....I still couldnt get over him...Eventhough its been 9 mths....
Fazilah-->Yes dear...Its definitely easier said...Than done of coz....

Da la...Suker hati ah aper DIA nak buat....HE'S old enuff 2 think.....
I think i juz drop the subject bout HIM altogether la ehhhh.......
Bukan nyer DIA respond.........So its alrite..........

N 2 Darn...Eh..Aku tak sabar nak jumper kau dis Sunday....Kekekekekek...U know i know la ehhhhhh....
2 Fana as well...Eh sak ahhhhhh.....Kau takmo step ah ehhhh..Mentang2 Beyonce......Aku tak takotttttt ahhhhhhhh....LOL...

Eh korg...Aku da giler SIMON COWELL balik ahhh...
Kiwakkkk....Dier pat Americano Idol..Makin cute sakkkk...Ahahahhaha.....
Aku biaser la....Suker laki2 sumer muker yg pelik2.....Muahahahah.....

Eh da...Aku da ngantok....So i guess i betta get goin..B4 the goin gets tough....Heh...

2004-04-15T15:31:00.000+08:00

Mp3:Khayalan
Artist:Black Dog Bone

AQUARIUS WEEKLY LOVESCOPE (April 12-18) HIS

What it was, what it is and what it can be are the focal points for love, romance, dreams and everything connected with them during this powerful heart centered week, Aquarius. Your thoughts are all important when it comes to getting into the nuances of love and it is thoughts, as well as conversations and exchanges which allow you to nurture what you desire, what you have and what you long for.There is a stroll through the past in either an overt and visible way or via your memories, feelings and visions.Expect to be doing some serious talking around what you most need…and what you most desire.

VIRGO WEEKLY LOVESCOPE (April 12-18) HERS

There is no more powerful of a week to spend some serious time reconnecting with your passions, Virgo. Your deepest, most compelling, most well hidden desires and fantasies. There is no better week to acknoweldge what truths you need in place within partnerships and love. There is no better week…to allow yourself the joy of an attachment, the power of a daydream…or the feelings of a heart to heart, soul to soul talk.Someone from the past plays a very important role in allowing you to reach in and embrace your romantic truths.Via memories…or appearance..pay attention to anything attached to "what was".

Oh My God................Am I Dreamin Or Sumthin????

*Sumbody Pls Slap Me!*

2004-04-14T15:28:00.000+08:00

Mp3:Cuando Seas Mia (When Will You Be Mine)
Artist:Son By Four

_______Ur Killin Me Softly._______

Gd noon readers...........Been pretty emotional these days........Last nite,I slept on at....
4 in the wee mornin.....N wad was i doin u may asked.....Well.....As usual.....
Thinkin bout HIM....Till it hurt real bad......*Sigh*
I still cant face the bloody fact dat he's gone......Gone wif the wind......I keep on repudiatin the reality....
N fuck 2 the cliched phrase 'Move On'.....How in the name of God can i move on when all i eva wanted is HIM????
Alrite...I'm still young....I'm barely 17.....I know dat.......Ppl been tellin me 2 move on..... 2 get over HIM....But
the only reason y i could still hold on dis far was coz of almie...He made me 4get bout HIM...for ONLY A SHORT PERIOD
of time,dat is...N now...HE is back...Hauntin me...Like a spirit...A lost soul....It hurts...It really does......

HE may not be ur typical 'mat2 sachok'....HE is definitely not a 'mat motor'.....But despite all dat....
I LOVE HIM...Still...N y?????I haf no idea.....Is dis wad we call true love?I dunno...U tell me....*sigh*
N i was wonderin....After more than 9 mths after the break-up....It feels like only yesterday i've gotten 2 know HIM...
N y is dat????I've got so many questions...But yet....I cant seem 2 find the solutions.....

Sum of my frens think HE'S gone...As in HE has found new love.....N dat HE doesnt want 2 haf anythin 2 do wif me...
N as usual...I haf frens who think otherwise...Again...I dunno...Is it becoz of my PMS dat i'm behavin like dis???
I hope so...Coz i cant bare dis pain anymore.........

N yes!!!!I am sorry.....Sorry bout wad i did 2 HIM......But i guess sayin sorry aint enuff....
I can nvr love sum1 like i love HIM....I tried my freakin best 2 love almie like i love HIM....
I wasnt anywhere close....I suppose dis kinda stuff juz cant be forced....It cums when it cums..
It goes when it goes....I think i haf 2 live wif dis 4eva........Time will do the healin...But cum 2 think again...
9 mths is pretty long.....But i still cant move on!

Hardy....Thinkin bout u juz bring me down....I'm not over u....I can try...But i doubt so i can..............

*~Ku Kira Engkau Sudah Melupakan.Kerna Itulah Engkau Nampak Tenang.Lainlah Aku Walau Ketika Ini.Masih Membara Ingatanku Terhadapmu.~*

++Godammit!I hate bein all emotional!++

N yes...I am still as materialistic as eva,baby!~(HE used 2 call me a materialistic gal...Oh well,i dun mind..=D)

2004-04-14T01:04:00.000+08:00

~~To My Wu-Tang Clan.They Know Who They Are.~~

Those were the days my friends.
We thought they'd never end.
We'd sing and dance forever and a day.
We'd live the life we choose,
We'd fight and never lose,
For we were young and sure to have our way.
La la la la...
Those were the days, oh yes those were the days.

Then the busy years went rushing by us.
We lost our starry notions on the way.
If by chance I'd see you in the tavern,
We'd smile at one another and we'd say,
'Those Were The Days'.......................

Through the door there came familiar laughter.
I saw your face and heard you call my name.
Oh my friend we're older but no wiser,
For in our hearts the dreams are still the same............................

Those Were Our K-siao Days La Korangggggggggggggggggggg!~

*I mean wads in the lyrics eh.....*

2004-04-13T23:42:00.000+08:00

Mp3:Baby Boy (Hardy la tuuuuuuuuuuu...kwang kwang kwang!~)
Artist:Beyonce Feat Sean Da Paul

[=======Dreamin Of You=======]

Oh hello there......Missed me??LOL...I'm juz feelin slightly better.....Coz u guys wanna know y??????
Becauseeeeeee.....Durin i was havin my afternoon nap...I dreamt bout Hardy...I know...I know...I've been talkin
bout him these past few days....But i cant help la......Bear wif me aite?Its greatly appreciated......
So anyway.....I dreamt bout him laaaaaa...Then2...We were on a date....We were sooooo LOVIN DOVIN...
Kwhahkwaahkakhwakw....Eventhough it was juz an illusion...I kinda felt his presence..It was damnnnnn gd 2 be able
2 be in his arms again...Not physically la....But still!Heh...Mak kauuuu....He was sooo sweet......A great
gentleman..He has always been a dat actually...=DSo yeah...I woke up feelin all jubilant...Smiled the whole
way 2 the toilet...Heh....I dunno la ehhhhh....But these past few days,i've been thinkin about him ALOT....
I even recalled the 1st time i called him...N guess wad was the 1st sentence i asked him?

Me:'Ermmm...Hussain ader???'
Him:'Hussain???Dats my father..I'm Hardy...'
Me:'Ohhh...So..ur Hardy eh???'(My goddd....I was sooo FREAKIN EMBARASSEDDDDDD!!!)

So like they say...The rest is history...:)
Anyways.......Last nite i chatted wif 1 of my best buds...Fana...
Kauuuuu....As usual..Crapped alot....We dun usually talk bout serious stuff la...
Then earlier dis afternoon...Received a call frm another close sis of mine...Jah....
She was in sch....N we can still crapped sak...Power 2 the maaaaaaaaaaaa!~
I am happy ah...But at the same time also sad..Coz we dun get 2 see each other dat often anymore...
*Sigh*

-={ Dis is us....The Fantastic 5....We influenced alot of peepz..=P..N yeah..I'm in the extreme left...In grey...=D}=-

*N fuck...The scanner sucks la...The pic turned out 2 be all DARK n DIRTY....Darn!~*

2004-04-13T00:33:00.000+08:00

-=[ Mathematics Is Fun(Yeah Rite!) ]=-

!) Hardy + Shahila = Hardila

2) Almie + Shahila = Shalmie

3) Hardila - Hardy = Shahila

4) Shalmie - Almie = Shahila

5) Shahila - Shahila = DEAD!!!!

*Sigh* Alrite!~ Class dismissed!!!!!!!

2004-04-12T00:17:00.000+08:00

<---------------Oh Hardy!--------------->

Oh Hardy, I am but a fool.
Darling I love you.
Though you treat me cruel.
You hurt me, and you make me cry.
But if you leave me,(U already did *sobs*)
I will surely die.(I'm half dead)

I am but a fool.

Oh Hardy, I am but a fool.
Darling I love you.
Though you treat me cruel.
You hurt me, and you make me cry
But if you leave me,
I will surely die.

Darling there will never be another,
Cause I love you so.
Don't ever leave me,(*sobs* i'm all alone)
Say you'll never go.
I will always want you for my sweetheart.(HELL YEAH!)
No matter what you do,
Oh, Hardy
I'm so in love with you.

*Sigh*...Actually dis is a song entitled 'Oh Carol' by Paul Anka...But well,i decided 2 change it...Juz a slight bit,though...
Boy...I missed u so.......Ahhhhhh.....Wad do u care,anyway?!!!!
Wah seyyyy shahila..Org da tak suker abeh nak marah sak...Aper jerrrrr....
Heh....Eh sak ah..Aku masih suker dier per....He cant make me NOT LOVE HIM wadddddddddddd...
Bersyukor la kerana aku MASIH sayang dierrrr...Khwahawkahkahkaw!~

Ps:I think he made me drink a love potion...Dats y i'm still stuck lovin him...Hah!~~~

2004-04-11T03:01:00.000+08:00

-=Pardon Me.I'm bein TOO EMOTIONAL.PMS.Argh.=-

A Song.4 HIM.

It won't be for a while.
Then comes a smile,
takes me back to yesterday.
Or maybe on the radio.
I will hear that long ago song you always loved to play.
That's when I know I can't pretend.
Thoughts of you will simply end.
Just because you've gone away.

I will remember you .
There's no forgetting someone who
Just took my life and made it new.
you'll always be a part of what is me.
I will remember you.
And everything that we've been through,
No matter where life leads me to you'll hold a place that time cannot erase.

You changed the way.
I live each day.

I will remember you.
And though each day brings more to do,
What still remains is love that's true.
My love won't die because we said good-bye.
Love won't die because we said good-bye.

Sighhhhhhhhhh....I cant help it..........PMS laaaaaaaaaaaa...Knn!~
I cant sleep sak...Babi..Argh....I dunno ah...But these days eh..Mcm wanna kill
myself ahhhhhh....I hate dis time of the month....Depressin 2 the maxxxxxxxx!~
Ah ok..I think i read my BIOLOGY TEXTBK better..U will do stupid stuff when
ur...BORED 2 THE POWER OF 90528369532668532.....Hrmmmmmppppppp....

*I'm sooo in the mood 4 mushy2.Grrrrr*

2004-04-11T02:25:00.000+08:00

[ Cuando Seas Mia???? (When Will You Be Mine) ]

When Will You Be Mine?Again???????????????????????????

2004-04-11T00:31:00.000+08:00

++[ Dun attempt 2 do a thing unless u r sure of urself; but dun relinquish it simply coz sum1 else is not sure of u. --Stewart E. White ]++

I am down wif a fever...A slight 1...But i still dun feel too gd...Argh....
Oh well..Been thinkin alot these days...School's startin REAL SOON....
N no doubt i am excited bout it...I hope i wont slack dis time....
I dunno..But my mom still haf doubts in me...As in she's still not confident dat i
can do dis...I cant blame her...
She gave me so much opportunities 2 prove dat i can succeed..
But time n time again..I always ended up failin her...Twice 2 be precised...

Yeah..I know i flung durin my PSLE..No doubt...N my O levels as well...
I cant simply blame other ppl..can i????
I promised her i will do well in my O's..Coz i was tear-soaked when i got
my PSLE result...N i dun intend 2 repeat the same mistake in my O's...
N as usual...I disappoint her...I know i might not be as smart as my younger bro...
But i know i can do dis..N did u really think i wanna fail??
Oh cum on!!Who wants 2 fail???!!!!
There were alot of distractions....N i couldnt get my myself disciplined....
I'm weak in a sense....BUT pls...Give me dis 1 last chance...
I KNOW i can do dis...Haf a little faith in me...

I never wanted failure....But i guess my actions made me draw closer 2 it....
I am NOT gonna disappoint my mom again...U guys be the witnesses....
I want 2 do dis...N will do it till i succeed...I wanna make my mom proud...
Coz u see,i'm always the 1 makin her life difficult...Esp regardin money...
I admit i am unreasonable n irresponsible at times...N yeah..
She paid all my mobile bills 4 me..Ard $200.....I am such a difficult kid 2 raise...
*sigh*
I think i've lost my touch..But i'm gonna get it back...N I am gonna KICK-ASS!!!!
I wanna get dat freakin Diploma..N IF possible..Dat figgin Degree as well...

Gosh...I shouldnt feel all stressed out rite now...I am gettin giddy...
So mama...Pls trust me...I am gonna prove it 2 u....
I know it easier talkin then doin...But u must haf a start...............

*Fuck..I am havin my PMS...Juz realised...Grrr*

2004-04-09T19:53:00.000+08:00

..........:Somewhere Only We Know:..........

I walked across an empty land.I knew the pathway like the back of my hand.
I felt the earth beneath my feet.Sat by the river and it made me complete.
Oh,simple thing where have you gone?I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when you're gonna let me in.I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.

I came across a fallen tree.I felt the branches of it looking at me.
Is this the place we used to love?Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?
Oh,simple thing where have you gone?I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when you're gonna let me in.I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.

And if you have a minute why don't we go?Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything.So why don't we go?
Somewhere only we know?Oh,simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.So tell me when you're gonna let me in.
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.

And if you have a minute why don't we go?Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything.So why don't we go?
Somewhere only we know?

This could be the end of everything.So why don't we go?
Somewhere only we know?

U know..It hurts everytime i think of him...Last nite..Was in bed...Listenin 2 my walkman...N as my mind wandered far away...Thinkin bout wad i could haf done..
N wad i shouldnt haf done...Suddenly..Pearl Jam's Last Kiss had 2 b played on air...
So there i was...Lyin in bed...Tears juz rolled down w/o me noticin...

Its sad sumtimes..How sum1 can change ur life 4eva..N how a person can
make ur perception on things change...

Aku tidak pernah melupaimu.Kau sentiasa di ingatan.Mungkin sudah takdir kita
berpisah.Aku anggap semua ini sebagai satu dugaan.Dugaan yang begitu pahit
untuk aku terima.Tetapi apakan daya,aku tidak dapat menukar fikiran mu itu.
Jelas kau sudah berpunya yang baru.Aku berdoa agar kau bahagia disamping si dia.
Dan jangan kau lupa.Aku tidak akan melupakan dirimu.Akan tetap aku menyayangi
mu,wahai Hardy Hussain.

2004-04-09T02:01:00.000+08:00

[-------Lets Do it.Survey.Crap.-------]

1: Grab the book nearest to you. Turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down here what it says.
{Guess wad???I'm lazyyyy...Heh}

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
{Errrr..Nuthin...}

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?
{American Idol...Yeah...}

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is.
{1am?}

5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
{1.15...Ahhh...Close...}

6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
{Erm.....The sound of my fan!!}

7: When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
{Lets see..Ummm...Last Sunday...Went out wif my family..Shoppin...}

8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?
{Wait....I cant remember..So many sites i went to..}

9: What are you wearing?
{Tee n shorts...Brandless..Hello,I'm sleepin after dis!Hah}

10: Did you dream last night? What about?
{I 4got!!!}

11: When did you last laugh? Why?
{Yeah...Wif my folks..U wouldnt wanna know y..*grins*}

12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?
{Dis huge Adidas poster...The 1 wif all the athletes..Becks included!}

13: Seen anything weird lately?
{Ummmm...Nahhh...I'm still me..}

14: What do you think of this quiz?
{Try guessin}

15: What is the last film you saw?
{FIGHT CLUB!Alrite..I make dis clear..I watched dat flick not coz of Brad Pitt...;)}

16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
{Dat GUESS WATCH!!!!!I'm soooo cravin 4 itttttt...Heh}

17: Tell me something about you that I don't know.
{Do u know me at the very 1st place????*winks*}

18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
{I'll make Saddam Hussein an American citizen...*smiles sweetly*}

19: Do you like to dance?
{Yep..Yep...}

20: George Bush
{Ahhhh.....I'll make him convert into a Muslim..}

21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
{U know..These r 1 of those stuff dat i dun think bout..At least not now..=)}

22: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
{Take a peek above}

23: Would you ever consider living abroad?
{Perhaps...Perhaps..Perhaps..Gosh sounded like a song huh?}

24: Will you pass on this survey?
{Erm...Post it here...So,sum1..Pls cut n paste dis thingy..N do it..Thanks!:p}

Ahhhh...Alritey...I'm done crappin 4 2day...Oh well...Juz did sum work-out..
Kinda tired...Goin 2 sleep soon...So..Till 2moro my love...
Muackazations!~

I'll leave wif dis..A 'comic strip' worth a thousand(a million perhaps..Heh) words...

Becks:Oh god...There she is..Shahila,amour...She looks gorgeous as eva!~
Figo:Is dat HER??????No wonder she DUMPED me...Damn!Lucky u,David!~
Casillas:Oh hell!Its HER rite???Looks like an angel 2 me...Ummmm....

Becks:Oh u!I'll catcha later sweetie pie!*Licks his sexy lips*
Figo:Dammit!It IS her!!!!!*stared at shahila wif amazement*
Casillas:She's way toooo gd 4 me....She's all urs becks...No chance 4 me...*sighs*

Becks:*Laughs* She dumped u,Figo????I can see y!!
Figo:Yeah...I am such a loserr..*Laughs*

-----After the interview session..Becks made his way 2 meet Shahila-----

Oh where,Oh where can my sweetheart beeee????Pls show up...

Ohhhhhh!There u r,my love!I gonna get u!~*looks all sexed up*

-----So there u go....Pretty borin'..But wad the hell..I love it!Heh-----

2004-04-08T17:26:00.000+08:00

::::::::::Arsenal Is Out Of The UEFA Champions League::::::::::

Lets greet the gunners wif a very warm..Kwang!Kwang!Kwang!.....Boo ya!~
Tsk..Tsk..Tsk...So much for bein confident eh,Mr Arsene Wenger????
Like i said b4...Arsenal can nvr dominate Europe..As much as they say they will..
They juz cant...Too bad,lads..=)
If Fergie couldnt lay his wrinkled hands on the European Cup....
Wad makes u,Mr Wenger think dat u could in urs?
Man utd was out of the League 4 a reason...They were havin a pretty rough time...
So be it...I dunno wif u frenchmen...Always boastin...*Sigh*
Ahhh..I see...French is a superior race i suppose...Wadeva..=)
So now..At least..Sir Alex has a higher chance of gettin dat FA cup..
But u gunners?Wad r u left wif??Juz the Premier League??
Hah...The race is still on...U can still do it Gunners..Juz be sure dat manager of urs,
shut his mouth...;)
Maybe...Man Utd's sovereignty over England will end..Or will it be there 2 stay?
Let's juz wait n see...

::::::::::My Character Traits.As shown Below.Sum R True.Sum R Not:::::::::

SEPTEMBER
[Suave and compromising]--> Yeah..I am..
[Careful, cautious and organized]--> Erm..Not sure bout bein organised,though..
[Likes to point out people's mistakes]--> Hell yeah!~=p
[Likes to criticize]--> Well..Only certain people..
[Quiet but able to talk well]--> Sure I am...
[Calm and cool]--> Definitely...Rite Darn?Heh
[Kind and sympathetic]--> Yep...Dat is sumtimes my major prob..Too kind..
[Concerned and detailed]--> Yeaaaaa...
[Trustworthy, loyal and honest]-->I guess so..=)
[Does work well]--> Depends on the work dat i'm doin..:p
[Very confident]--> Sumtimes
[Sensitive]--> Yeaaahhhhh
[Thinking]--> Always!~
[Generous]--> Everytime!~
[Good memory]--> Erm..How cum my science D7 ah?*Laughs like a maniac*
[Clever and knowledgeable]--> No comment...
[Loves to look for information]--> Yeshie
[Must control oneself when criticizing]--> Hahaha
[Able to motivate oneself]--> Izzit?
[Understanding]--> All the time
[Fun to be around]--> U gotta ask my clan
[Secretive]--> About certain things..Yes,i do..
[Loves sports, leisure and traveling]--> Dats me!~
[Hardly shows emotions]--> Erm...
[Tends to bottle up feelings]--> Ummphhhh
[Choosy especially in relationships]--> VERY!~
[Loves wide things]--> Uh huh!
[Systematic]--> Eh?

Alrite...I've been crappin alot these days...So i guess..I'll leave u now...Dun miss me..=)

2004-04-08T13:25:00.000+08:00

-------Cinta-cinta Gua Tak Main Ah.Rindu-rindu Gua Geli.-------

Hah..Heard dat phrase yesterday nite while watchin the telly....Damnations!~

2004-04-08T00:37:00.000+08:00

{ Everyday Is A Drag }

I am sick.I hate bein sick.I am bored.I HATE bein bored.So now,let's crap.I love crappin.

> [My name is]: Shahila
> [In the morning I am]: Sleepy!~
> [All I need is]: to get a life..=)
> [Love is]: a four-letter word????
> [I'm afraid of]: dyin.....
> [I dream about]: bein a successful in life....
> [Pictured your crush naked?]: Errrrr...Nope...Nvr..I swear!~
> [Actually seen your crush naked]: Need i say????
> [Had sex]: Errrrrrrmmmmmmmm
> [Made love]: Errrrrrrmmmmmmm
> [Been in love]: 9 months ago...
> [Cried when someone died]: uh huh
> [Lied]: Who doesnt?
> [Coke or Pepsi]: COKE!~
> [Flowers or candy]: Neither....Borin stuff....
> [Tall or short]: Tall coz i'm tall...=D
> [What do you notice first?]: Wad do u mean wad do i notice 1st??Elaborate.
> [Last person u slow danced with]: I nvr slowed dance b4...I'm not sappy...
> [Makes you laugh the most?]: Wu-tang Clan.
> [Makes you smile]: David Beckham
> [Do you have a crush on someone?]: Erm...Does Becks counts???
> [Has a crush on you?]: Sum jerk-ass,i suppose.
> [Easiest to talk to]: Jah & Fana
> [Save Aol/aim conversations]: i save MSN convo though.
> [Wish you were a member of the opposite sex]: Nxt pls.
> [Cried because of someone saying something to you]: Nah...

> > -H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
> [Fallen for your best friend]: Errr..I am straight.
> [Been rejected]: Sure.
> [Rejected someone]: I am a nice girl.
> [Used someone]: Nope.
> [Been cheated on]: Haf i?
> [Done something you regret]: Definitely.

> > -W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-
> [You talked to on the phone]: Fana the ting-tong gal.
> [Hugged]: My cousin.Haqqem.
> [You instant messaged]: My Prepaid card has a low credit.
> [You laughed with]: Fanana-nutcrunch.

> > -D O .Y O U-
> [Colour your hair]: Yeah..But WONT EVA AGAIN.It spoils my silky hair.Damn!
> [Ever get off the damn computer]: Yeaaa..
> [Habla espanol]: WTF.

> > -D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-
> [Smoke cigarettes]: Errrr...Sheesha?
> [Obsessive]: Nopeee
> [Could you live without the computer?]: I'll try.
> [How many peeps are on your buddy list?]: i've got several msn acc. so well, hundreds to thousands?
> [What's your favourite food?]: Anythin.Aint cerewet.
> [What's your favourite fruit?]: Peach!~Mango!~
> [Like watching sunrises or sunset]: They're beautiful.
> [What hurts the most?]: Doin sumthin dat u'll regret 4 the rest of ur life.Whoah..Sounded so intellectual..=P
> [Trust others way too easily?]: Uhhuh.

> > -N U M B E R-
> [Of times I have had my heart broken?]: Errrrr...1~~!!!!!!!!!
> [Of hearts I have broken?]: I am a gd gal.
> [Of continents I have lived in?]: 1.
> [Of drugs taken illegally?]: 0.
> [Of tight friends?]: 10?
> [Of cd's that I own?]: I cant count.
> [Of scars on my body?]: Count for me?
> [Of things in my past that I regret?]: A couple.

My oh my...Wad a bore,aint it?Anyways......

2004-04-07T16:08:00.000+08:00

----Life's A Bitch----

I'm no sure...Y we're not suppoze 2 do certain things...
N y do certain things...Maybe becoz of our
religion...And perhaps our culture...My religion is sumthin i truly adore..
Eventhough sumtimes i admit..I do break the rules...Heh...
A fren told me..He luvs his gf..But yet....He feels,he wanna haf another 1...
Sum1 whom he can do 'things' wif...N after doin those 'things'....He will easily let go..
W/o thinkin of the person's feelins...

R ALL MEN LIKE DAT?????
If they all r..I guess i will be single 4 a long time...
Is SEX the ONLY thing men want in a relationship??????
Or do they want both sex n love????
Maybe if ur married...Dats a different thing altogether...
I wont mind AT ALL if u wanna haf sex wif ur partner every hour...
But wad if...U guys r juz galfrens n boyfrens??????Or even fiancee???
Hmmm..Dat got me thinkin...Sumtimes....Men juz disgust me...
N sumtimes...I simply luv them 2 my bones!~

Weird isnt it??Or should i say funny???*Sigh*
Its real hard 2 find a guy who truly loves u...N wont cheat behind ur back....
He is like a needle in a stack of hay...U must carefully search of him....
God...U know..All those tv shows where the male characters r really loyal...
Those r bull shit...Aint true....

I guess...4 me..Men r juz there 2 b looked at...Not 4 me 2 get emotionally
entangled wif...Heh.....Its betta dat way...Juz see...=P

So dats y..I cant wait till sch starts....WoooHoooooo!~
Can see all those cute hunks....SEE only eh...*giggles*

Alrite....I need sum beauty sleep..

*Men..Pls..dun make me hate u...-sighs-*

2004-04-07T02:47:00.000+08:00

-=| Stoned |=--

Sigh.......What day is 2day?

2004-04-06T03:28:00.000+08:00

----== Goddamit, an entire generation pumping gas...waiting tables...slaves with white collars. Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. We're the middle children of history...no purpose or place. We have no great war...no great depression. Our great war is a spiritual war, our great depression, is our lives. We've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires and movie gods and rock stars, but we won't. We're slowly learning that fact. And we're very, very pissed off..... ==----

2004-04-06T03:23:00.000+08:00

------===| Amazing |===------
By George Gay Michael(though he isnt straight..I luv dis song of his)

I was mixed up when you came to me
Too broke to fix
Said 'daddy get you gone, I'm missing my baby'
Still missing my baby

I was stitched up by the hands of fate
Said how you gonna make it on your own
If luck is a lady ?
Maybe luck is a lady

I was going down for the third time
My heart was broken, I was not open to your suggestions
I had so many questions
That you just kissed away

Tell me, I guess that cupid was in disguise
The day you walked in and changed my life
I think it's amazing,
The way that love can set you free

So now I walk in the midday sun
I never thought that my saviour would come
I think it's amazing
I think it's amazing

I think you're amazing

You tried to save me from myself
Said 'Darling, kiss as many as you want!
My love's still available
And I know you're insatiable'

We're like victims of the same disease
Look at your Big Bad Daddy, and your mom
And your mom...was always acting crazy

I was going down for the third time
My heart was broken, I though that loving you was out of the question
Then I saw my reflection
Saying please don't let this go

Tell me, I guess that cupid was in disguise
The day you walked in and changed my life
I think it's amazing,
The way love can set you free

So now I walk in the midday sun
I never thought that my saviour would come
I think it's amazing
I think you're amazing

Celebrate the love of the one you're with

Celebrate, this life with you baby
I think you should celebrate yeah
Don't put your love in chains baby
No no, walk in the midday sun
I though I was dreaming
I think it's amazing
I think you're amazing

I said celebrate the love of the one you're with

As this life gets colder
And the devil inside
Tells you to give up

2004-04-06T01:43:00.000+08:00

---=| Oh My God!Ur Kiddin Rite?! |=---

I was watchin the telly in my bro's room...Initially,I wanted 2 read-up my old
history textbook..I know...Y would i wanna do dat?Well...Sittin at home is a bore...
So yeah...N as i was bout 2 get up n go 2 the kitchen 2 grab a drink...
Sumthin caught my eyes...It was the advert in the black box...
It sounded like...'The Miss S'pore Universe goes tooooo....Sandy Chua...'
N when i lookep up....Holy shit...She....God....Juz made me speechless...
Goodness..Wad were the judges thinkin?????
Alrite...As much as all of us want the pageant 2 be 'looks aside'...
We juz cant...Every1 will be picturin beautiful faces once they hear 'Miss blah
blah'...

Sigh...I heard frm the radio..1 guy said dat the standard were lowered dis year...
But hell was i wonderin..Were there really any standard frm the start??????
Well..Who am i 2 judge...Dat Cindy..Or was is it Candy??Rite..Its Sandy...
Wadeva...She looks like a typical nyonya jual sayor at the market
near my place...Tsk...n Skru..I share the same opinion as u...*cheers bro* Heh...

N the very 1 thing dat scares me...Is dat...Juz imagine..
Dat Sandy 'ah lian' Chua...Standin beside..Miss Spain..Miss Italy..Miss France..
At the cumin Miss Universe Pageant...Tsk..But i really do hope...
Dat the ppl of the world..Wont stereotype...Doesnt mean Sandy Chua n William
Hung look like they look,all asians look like them...Argh...
I think the judge in the Miss Universe Pageant..Wont even notice Sandy...
LOL..*Laughs Evil-ly*

Alrite..Enuff of dis shit...

2004-04-05T15:10:00.000+08:00

*When U Are Unable 2 See Sumthin,Dun Assume Dat It Isnt There.*

2004-04-05T00:45:00.000+08:00

*Then came almie tersayang..Da matair..Tapi BELUM(DAN HARAP2 TAK AKAN..INSYALLAH) break pun.....*[ taken frm my previous entry ]
Bull shittttttttttt...I lied...I did want 2 break up wif himmmmmmm...
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!~
See..How 1 hell of a bitch i can be...So yeah....
I'm not a bitch...I AM THEEEEEEE BITCH,mind u.....

2004-04-05T00:00:00.000+08:00

I'm soooo happyyyyyyyy...
I'm SINGLE once again!~~~
Great....WoooHoooooooooo!~
Singlehood...Here i cum..
GdBye coupleDOOM!!!~~I'll see u in a veryyyyyyy long time again.....
Heh...So yes...Every1....I'm alrite yah...Korg pls ah..Takmo kesian2 kan aku..
Aku happy la siak...Lagikpun...Dis was wad i wanted...
So yeah..Peace out!~

*Hardy...I missed uuuuuuuuuu!~*

2004-04-04T01:54:00.000+08:00

------===I'm Gonna Lay My Hands On Either One Of You===------

Erm...Dis is in WHITE..My FAV COLOUR...But hell...There's a little of PINK!Yucks!

Juz perfect...Black n WHITE...But....The WHITE/pink looks nice too...But y PINK??????!!!!Arghhhhhh...Tak nak ahhh...Pink mcm wanna ACT CUTE siakkkk...Aku da
la mmg cuteeee...Kwhhkwahkawhkaw!~Prasan nak mampos!~Heh

Ishk...Saw both of those watches juz now...Guess watches R PRETTY EXPENSIVE...
Well..Ader ruper..Ader harga laaaaaaaaa...Heh...But nvm...Gonna get IT....SOON...
Kwang kwang kwang!~

------===I WANT DISSS(PREFERABLY IN ORANGE/WHITE)===------

Wah seyyyyyy....I really,really,really want IT...Gosh...Such a perfection....Nvm...
Ask abah 2 use his CitiBank Card 1st...I'll pay by instalments...
Ewahhhh...Aku bual world skali lagik...Eh pls la..I'm unemployed...Ader hati eh
nak belik 2 gadget...Harga kalau murah takper...Ni...Fuuuyoooo...Beratus siiiiiii.....
*Sigh*...Erm..Senang ckp...Aku belik printin machine ah....Makes it easier 4 me 2
print more n more money...Kau p.k mak bapak kau chap duitttttttt???!!!Always hear dat frm my mom...Heh....

Oh well..Dats juz me...Eh...Kalau saper2 nak VOLUNTEER belik kan bender2 yg
terpangpang di atas..Sila hubungi....Errr..Tah yah...Leave pat tag board jekkk..
Kwhakwhakkhwakhaw!~

Ah ok...Aku nak gi tgk bola...Real Madrid versus sum team laaa..
I dun care..Asalkan madrid main jek..Aku sanggup tgk..
U know..Its been a prettyyyyyyyyyy long time since i REALLY watched a soccer match..
Dulu time aku sec 3...Ah kau...Kejap2 bola..Mkn bola..Minum bola...Tido bola...Main bola...Errr..Main bola??Bola saperrrrrrrrrrrrrr???
Siak siak siak...Harap2 becks nyer ahhhhhhh...Aku punnnnnnnnnn....
I was at dat time..Only focused on footballers...Cute n gorgeous once,pls...
Heh...Not much on real men i see everyday....As in i only concentrated on my
so-called FANTASY WORLD..Where everythin was HEAVEN...=D
So biler da masok sec 4...Things began 2 change...Met Hardy......
Da matair..Da break punnnnn...
Then came Almie,tersayang...Da matair...Tapi BELUM(DAN HARAP2 TAK AKAN..INSYALLAH) break pun......So yeah..Dat was it...
So........I catcha later..Aku nak gi cuci mater ni..Tgk jantan2 pat tv...
Kwhhakwhkwakhawkhawhkaw!~

*Beckham....Here i cum,sweethearttttttttttttttttttt...!!!*

2004-04-03T01:35:00.000+08:00

Ok...No more entries containin baby's msges...He asked me....
Whether it was appropriate...Well...U mean the world 2 me...So...
I dun feel ashamed or embarassed 2 share those msges of urs 2 my readers....
Alrite...Ppl r entitled 2 their own opinions...Sounds cliched as eva...But its true..
So yeah...If u tak nak i letak msg-msg u...Ok..I'll do juz dat....
Oh i luper ah...U mmg secretive bout us....I haf 2 respect dat....
Sak ah.shahila...Perkara kecik ni pun mahu marah kah..
Eh siak ah...Aper perkara kecik??Ni issue besar maha besar ok!
Yer la...Salah ker aku nak express my feelins 2wards him???
Dier da la berbatu-batu jauh...I know...U tak marah...Tapikan..
Ur thot ah...Buat i naik angin jap....Asal eh..Mcm u taknak org tahu???

Da....B4 aku jadik lagik tebiat..Baik aku blah.....
*i love u,baby*
ps:korg tgk..aku marah pun aku sempat ckp the 3 words....=D

2004-04-02T01:45:00.000+08:00

------===My 1st Crush===------
ROQUE SANTA CRUZ

------===Ijah's 1st Crush===------
TOMOK

------===Fana's 1st Crush===------
BAIHAKKI KHAIZAN

N 4 Dinna n Jamillah...Dorg tak suker minat2 lelaki2 ni sumer..Dorg hanya puja...
Matair dorg jek...
N no la..Dun get mistaken..I still love my baby sooo much...
Cuma dis Roque guy....I liked him since Sec 4...Lama tau..
Ni pic laki2 sumer kira mcm..Flashback ah...Time maser Sec 4 dulu....
The guys dat we liked..
Until now also..Hehe..N serious ah...Baju yg si Baihakki pakai kan...Samer mcm Nasha
pakai 2 ari la..Yg gi celebrate dinna nyer b'day...Haha...Kwang kwang kwang...
Ok...Enjoy...
Pa rap pap pa paaaaaaaaaa!~I'm luvin almie!~

2004-04-02T00:14:00.000+08:00

Wah sey...Skarang da pukol braper ah?Mama & abah still missin....
-=Ishk=-...Wonder where they go...Haiyah...Dun tell me they go datin....
Anak da 4 oi....Ader hati eh nak ber-datin mcm zaman matair2 dulu??
Kwhhkwahkwakhwa!~...-=Siak=-
Its really borin w/o them in the house...I mean..I cant talk crap wif them...
I cant step manjer wif them....Yah...Yah...I know....I'm the eldest child...
But tak kan eldest child tak bley manjer seyyy....-=Hah=-...
Then i was on the fone wif 1 of my dearies...Deen...She called...
Wantin 2 talk la..Da lamer sey dier tak call..So yeah...
She was tellin me..Bout her elder bro(1st child)...
Who is an editor 4 his university's mag..
I think ah...So korg tgk ah eh....Anak sulong...Anak HARAPAN ANTARABANGSA....
Kwang kwang kwang...

So now..I am all alone in my room...My other siblings all r already fast asleep...
Me,myself & 1...
So dat sums up 2 3 ppl rite?
K,shahila..Merepek tak layan ah eh...-=Heh=-
Borin' sak ni mcm...Rumah senyap....Da la aku sorg2...Cam siak...
Skali eh....Ader mat hansem menjelma dari blakang aku....Eh diam la..
Niari mlm jumaat la siakkkkkkk....
Tapikan...Kalau sekiranyer hantu tu hansem..Aku dun mind ah tgk dier...
Hehe...Gwad...I sooo sound like a minah...-=Ishk=-

Eh seriously speakin...I was really wonderin eh..Y on earth we must start sch
in July???
Dis fella eh..Wads his name again?Errr...Mr Tharman Shanmugaratnam...
Ah yes...Him....N btw...He's juz a actin minister...
-=Sigh=-
Y cant he change the rules??
I mean...At least let us(Those who r not attendin poly/CI)start the semester earlier...
Does he has any idea how BORIN' it is 2 juz sit at home..Or 4 sum...Werk...?
Gosh...Rite now..Seriously speakin...I missed school...
Really do...I missed those long hours of math...science...N ART!!
Hah...Surprisinly also...I missed assembly...Hmmmm...
N i missed hangin out wif my darlins...Missed wearin my sch uniform...My Reebok Classic shoes..*Sigh*
Life's such a draggggg...4 now,dat is...I need 2 get a life....
Arghhhhhhh...Blearghhhhhhhhh....Hyakkkkkkkkk Dushhhhhhhhhhh...
*Sigh*...Sum1...Any1...Inspire me pls.....

N u know...1 whole day 2day...Baby didnt msg me...Nasib baik i was online
at MSN...kalau tak..Da kira 1 hari la tak communicate dgn dier...
I dunno but he mentioned dat he was disturbed by my entry bout hardy...
*Sigh*
He's afraid dat my feelins 4 dat guy will rekindle...
Lame ah u,baby...I da sayang u gini nyer byk..U tetap sangsi terhadap i?
Mampos..Da mcm sandiwara siak..Kalah gelora...Heh...
But serious la sweetie...U takmo la p.k mcm tu k...U mean the werld 2 me...
Hardy is so my past...AHHHHHH...At last..Dier msg jugak...
Juz thinkin bout him..N Voila...*teet teet*..1 message received...
Dari si dia la..Saper lagik kan....Heh...
Alamak..Bacer msg dier kan...Fuuuuyoooooo...Cair guerrrr...Haha...
Ok...Wanna share it wif korg2 la...
It goes like dis....

-=When I See Your Face,=-
-=I Thank God For Your Beauty And Grace.=-
-=Your The Most Wonderful Thing Ever Created By God,=-
-=And I Thank You For Loving Me.=-
-=Your My Universe,My Love.=-
-=Gd Nite And Sweet Dreams.=-

*Sigh*
Dis is wad happens when ur ppaid card is low...U cant msg ur sweetheart...
Ur frens...N any1...Damn...Ah Nvm...Nanti gaji aku gi beli 40 top-up cards..
Chey wahhh....Shahila berbual world laaaaa...
Kwang kwang kwang...
Alrite...Dis is gettin worse...Till later...Muackazations!~

2004-04-01T02:01:00.000+08:00

N btw........There's dis 1 particular song..Dat once i hear it...Well...Hardy Hussain cums 2 mind...Its by Pearl Jam...Last Kiss...I still remember vividly...How we sorta 'fought'...
When i was luvin david beckham so much..N he..Luvin Jacelyn Tay alot...We were like..
Erm..Makin one another jealous..So I told him 1 day..Dat i was goin away..
2 Madrid,Spain...2 catch a glimpse of my sweettttttheart....Becks,baby...
So he was sad...N dedicated a song 4 me...It goes like...Basically the chorus...
He changed the lyrics..Juz 4 me..*Sigh*

--Oh where,oh where,can my Dearie be....--
--The Spainards took her away from me....--
--She's gone to Madrid so I got to be good..--
--So I can see my Dearie when I leave this world.--

*Kept sighin*

N there was dis 1 time...We were on MSN..As usual..Then..He gotta go sumwhere...
I think he wanna eat...So he said.."Dearie...U wait up..I need 2 eat yah.."
So i was like.."Ok..."...
I was kinda pissed la..I mean...I was only online 4 a short while..N there he was...
Wantin 2 eat..So...I said again..."I taknak makan ah niari..Biar i mati cepat2..."
He replied..."Wads wif u??...No...U cant die 1st...Let me die...Coz i couldnt live
on w/o u..."

Astaraghfirullah Halazimmmmmm....
*No comment*

2004-04-01T01:18:00.000+08:00

Sampai Hati
By Spring

Tergamaknya dirimu menghiris hatiku
Tidakkah di hatimu punya perasaan
Sampainya hatimu meninggalkan aku
Di manakah janjimu yang setia

Betapa sepinya perjalanan hidup ini
Di kiri kananku penuh duri cintamu
Sampainya hatimu membiarkanku rindu
Kau terus menghilang tanpa berita

1
Entah mengapa rindu di hatiku masih di dada
Bukannya mudah nak kulupakan
Adakah tanda aku masih menyinta
Sedangkan engkau entah di mana

2
Hanya Tuhan yang mengerti hati dan perasaanku
Di tengah malam syahdu hatiku merindu
Sampai hati kau pergi tanpa pedulikanku lagi
Aku berdoa agar engkau bahgia

3
Biarlah aku abadikan cintaku yang setia...
Oh... kekasih
Segala kenangan menjadi rinduan
Cinta di hatiku seperti dulu

( ulang 2, 3, 1 )

2004-04-01T00:44:00.000+08:00

When I Look To The Sky[I freakin love dis song]
By Train

When it rains it pours and opens doors
And floods the floors we thought would always keep us safe and dry
And in the midst of sailing ships we sink our lips into the ones we love
That have to say goodbye

And as I float along this ocean I can feel you like a notion that won’t seem to let me go

Cause when I look to the sky something tells me you’re here with me
And you make everything alright
And when I feel like I’m lost something tells me you’re here with me
And I can always find my way when you are here

And every word I didn’t say that caught up in some busy day
And every dance on the kitchen floor we didn’t dance before
And every sunset that we’ll miss I’ll wrap them all up in a kiss
And pick you up in all of this when I sail away

Whether I am up or down or in or out or just plane overhead
Instead it just feels like it is impossible to fly
But with you I can spread my wings to see me over everything that life may send me
When I am hoping it won’t pass me by

And when I feel like there is no one that will ever know me there you are to show me

2004-04-01T00:26:00.000+08:00

--== Flashback ==--

I dunno actually...It feels weird as it is...But yet...I juz cant seem 2 figure out..
Wad the bloody hell is wrong wif me..Dammit!~
Alrite..
Maybe i did look up into my Sec 4's handbook(its like a diary & complete wif the dates)..
N hell yeah...
It brought out ALOT of memories...Both happy n sad ones...
The feelin only occured 2 me when i turned 2 a certain page..30th of June '03..
2 be exact...I wrote sumthin under dat date...
Here goes..(its kinda lame..But who cares..I was madly in lovED wif him)
"Hardy,i think u muz hate me now.Since u already saw my UGLY,FAT pic.
I know i dun look 1 bit like Jacelyn Tay but i hope we can remain as frens.
Is dat too difficult 2 fulfill???
I was wonderin as well...'WHY DO WE EVA MEET ONE ANOTHER??!!' "....

Dat was wad i wrote...Well..Hardy's my ex...My 1st love..Technically...
At dat particular time...Initially...I juz wanted 2 stay frens wif him...
But i dunno wad happened...It juz happened..
He asked me.."Wad r ur feelins 2wards me,shahila?"
Heh..N as usual..I HAD 2 STUMBLE wif my werds...He offered me 2 choices...
It was either LOVE or LIKE..
Then..I was DUMB enuff 2 ask him...
"Erm...Is SAYANG same as LOVE?"
He answered.."Yes...Exactly..."
N of coz i said.."Yeah...I SAYANG u..."
N guess wad his reply was??
"Dun worry shahila...Ur feelins r reciprocated...."
I was like..Jumpin wif joy...Coz i kept denyin my freakin feelins 2wards him..
N did u guys noticed sumthin??He LOVES 2 call my name...
Every sentence he said..Must end it wif my name..Huish!
Kinda flatterin though...Heh...

So yeah...Dat was a start of my LOVE SAGA wif HIM...
It lasted only 4...Let me guess...Errrr...26 days???
Hah..I know...Damn short..But trust me..
It felt as though i was wif him 4 years...Ish...
I fell in luv wif him..Real hard,i must say...
At dat time..I was takin my O's..So basically...Studies was SUPPOSE 2 be my TOP
priority..But hell...I chose him instead...Which kinda sux cum 2 think again...

U peepz mus be wonderin y i'm tellin all dis..I know..I know..
Its over now...But the fact dat i actually looked into my handbook dis afternoon..
It made it easier..Easier 4 me 2 flashback all those gd n bad times i shared wif him...
N yes..I was the 1 who wanted the break-up..Damn..I hate dat word..BREAK-UP..
*Sighs*
I'm not sure y i asked 4 it...It was a drastic 1..It was out of the blue...
Juz msged him.."Dats it.."
Gwad...I was DAT CRUEL..
But hey...His attitude changed alrite...N i know it was due 2 his job scope..
But did he 4get sumthin??I was 16!!!!N him???He was 21 then...
I barely know anythin bout dis thing called..LOVE...or wadeva...
He cant possibly blame me 100%...
Did i mentioned he was my 1st love?I believed i did..
So yeah...I got no experience wadsoeva...

I personally think dat he 4got sumthin...I know he was badly hurt..
But he 4got...Dat i was ALSO HURT in the process...Yes...We were pretty much..
Attached 2 1 another..So a harsh decision which i made...
Made it even harder 2 continue livin...
I swear...I apologized 2 him countless of times..But yet...He didnt gif in..
Chose 2 juz stick 2 his EGO self...

Remorseful???Yeah...A slight bit...I felt guilty 4 splittin wif him...
Didnt gave him a chance...The 3rd quarter of last year...It was HELL 4 me..
My prelims...Let's see...I got...Errr...3 F9's...An A1 4 MT...N the rest...Well...
Either a C ,D or E...N it sumed up 2 a WHOOPIN...36 points...
Great!U cant blame me..I was sufferin frm dis sickness..
Called..'The aftermath of the 1st love relationship syndrome'...

Ya allah...Only god knows how much pain i was goin thru..
My frens were VERY supportive..Stood by my side...Kept givin me the strength 2
move on....I did...Until now...I heard frm a fren dat HE's already datin sum1...
Gd 4 u,dude...
Me as well..I'm currently datin sum1...So yeah...But i can be sure 2 say dis...
U wont be forgotten,hardy...It took me less than a minute 2 fall 4 u..N hell!
Its gonna take me 4eva 2 REALLY erase u frm my mind...Ish...

Y m i feelin all gloomy 2day???*Grumbles*

2004-03-31T15:25:00.000+08:00

--==Pleasure==--

2004-03-31T13:31:00.000+08:00

At last...Got help frm M|zT...Thanks girl...U've helped me..Time n time again..
Wif this bloggy thingy,i mean...Ok..Moment of truth...

2004-03-31T02:48:00.000+08:00

Eh...Serious ah..If i were 2 stay online n wonder y the flamin shit r my....
Archieves missin..I think eh...I would die of frustration...Walau Weiiii...
Depressin siakk...Juz now...Again..I was fiddlin wif my template..
Then KABOOMMM...Dis freakin,unreliable junk-ass...Had 2 get jammed!!!!!...
N out of all times...Dis is the time..I chose not 2 save my changes...
So as u guys can imagine..I had 2 REDO all over again...N its not AT ALL..
Fun....Blearghhhhh....Sumtimes eh..I dunno siaaaa...Wads wrong wif my pc...
Screw lose ah,i think..Juz like me...-=KNN=-...
Ahhhhhhhh...Bley jln daaaaaaa...Aku heran tak heran...
Da..Aku ngantok...Crap in again later...
N..N..N..N...
Wait..Siak ah..Tadik...Dlm pukol 3.30 gituk...In the afternoon la..
Aku tgh syok2 tido eh...Skali..Telefon bunyik..
Sumpah siak..Saper nak bual dgn aku..
I was already geared-up(mampos..ila,kau p.k nak gi war per sak?!) 2 gif 1 hell of a shit 2 whoeva on the other line..
As usual...It was 4 me..
My mom said..'Shahila?Sekejap eh..Nurrrrrr...Telefonnnnnnnn..."...
I was like...Saper2 call ni eh..Mmg dasar kental ahhh..
KENTAL 2 THE POWER OF 2305709275092...
It was dat bad...
Took the receiver frm her...N said.."Ahhh.."
Voila!
The voiced greeted me wif.."Heyyy..."
Mampos...Tertelan air ludah aku kejappp..
Dia lagik..Bila saat2 yg aku tak raser dia yg call eh...Nanti suara dia yg kedengaran..
Pelik sakk..Then...Tros...Si dia tanyer..."Tgh buat aper 2?"
Tgh buat aper eh sayang?????
I stumbled wif my words ah..Gif me sum credits pls..I juz woke up..
Groggry alrite...I answered,"I tgh...Ahhhh..Errr...Baru bangun tido.."
N korg tahu aper dier nyer reaction???
Dia ketawer kauuuuuuuuuuuu...
Yer la..Aku tahu la dia ketawer sexy..Tapi tak yah nak show-off per..
In dis scenerio..He shouldnt laugh...-=Siak=-
Nasib baik dia ckp..'Ok..Ok.....Nvm then..."
Aku aper lagik...Pun ckp la.."Ahh ok...Bye..."
Siak kan akuuuuuuuuu???
Muahahahahaha....Sori la baby..U kalau call i eh..Slalu ah salah timin..
Lain kali 2..Signal sikit..:p

Ah ok...Mata pun da naik steam..Alrite...Nitez...

Ps:U...Sori ah eh..Coz i blum top-up my card...Susah nak communicate...Tapi
u tahu kannn..I tetap....Sayang....Cinta..Kasih...U....Eh da shahila..Toksah nak bual
mepek2...Kesian nanti org2 kene bacer kau nyer crap...

-Shoot me!-

2004-03-31T02:13:00.000+08:00

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh...Menyusahkan aku ajerrrrrrr...

2004-03-31T02:08:00.000+08:00

Alrite..Testin...

2004-03-29T01:37:00.000+08:00

-=| Oh God.Thank You.I've Found Him.Finally. |=-

-=Brandon Boyd=-
Ya Allah...Aku tgk dekni eh...Cair siak.....Ishhhh....Cum 2 mama,baby!~

2004-03-28T20:26:00.000+08:00

-=| I'm Sick |=-

Dammit....I'm sick...-=Sigh=-
I hate it when i'm sick....-=Ish=-

-=| Si Dia Called |=-

Almie tercinta called...I was REALLY wasnt expectin him 2 call...
I received his msg at ard 10 plus....Told me he wanted 2 sleep.....
Wished me good nite n stuff(kisses n hugs all laaaa..-=Heh=-).....
So i thought...Alrite...He's sleepin already...
Then at ard...11.45...The phone rang..
1st thing dat came into my mind was...
Ahhh..Mesti si fana ni call.....sebokkkkkkkk jerrrrrr....-=Hah=-
So i was already gettin ready 2 greet her wif,'Hai Kental!!!~'
I picked up the phone(in Yan's room)...Feelin all cheery..Despite bein sick...-=Bleargh=-
Then...I heard IT...His voice dat i adored sooo much.....
Aku da nak kat ckp 'hai kental' sakkkkk....
Skali dgr suare dier yg sexy tuuu...Tros aku terbantut jappp....-=Heh=-
Aku da mcm stunt...Then ckp..'U tunggu jap eh'(maklum...terperanjat..:p)
Went 2 use my cordless...Well..Talkin 2 ur sweetheart...Its a MUST 4 privacy....
I realised...Our conversation yesterday...Was a very...-=erm=-..
Important 1...He poured out his feelins....He talked most of the time..
N hell...I dun mind 1 bit...When ur able 2 listen 2 the world's sexiest voice...
U wont mind not talkin....-=Hehe=-
Darn!I missed him soooooooo much now...-=Ishk=-

He sent me dis 2 msges...I wanna share it wif u guys...
Here goes...

-=I've Decided To Commit My Life To Lovin You.=-
-=Your The Only One Who I Feel Deserves My Sacrifices.=-
-=I Just Hope You Won't Hurt Me=-
-=Because My Heart Can Never Be Healed,=-
-=If Its Hurt By You.=-

-=The Tears I Cry Before I Sleep Everynight Are For You.=-
-=I Can't Explain How Much I Miss You.=-
-=Only You Can Drive Me To Tears,=-
-=But Its Ok Because Cryin For Missin An Angel Like You Is Worth It.=-

Korg tgk ahhhhhh...Mcm maner aku tak sayang dier????
-=Sigh=-
He's sooooo....Sweet sak....Sumtimes kan..Aku takot...
Kalau-kalau..Aku TER-buat dier feel hurt ker...Say the wrong things ker...
Korg tahu ah aku...Kalau bual kan...Ikot sedap hati...:p

He put so much effort in our relationship...
I dunno....I hope i can make him happy..Juz as he make me...:)
I love u...U know i do...

P.s:WoooooHoooooooo...I bought a new MNG top....Nice!~

2004-03-27T00:06:00.000+08:00

-=| HIM |=-

Alrite...2day will be the 1st time...Eva in history...2 sleep early..I'm headin 4 bed..
Soon enuff..Kinda tired..Went out wif dad...Submitted my forms 2 Lasalle..
Then when 2 town..Yada...Yada..Yada....Bought a new top....
-=Heh=-
Dat is as usual..My highlite of the day...
Anyway..I missed him ah...-=Sigh=-
Who???
Laki aku la ber-wangs!~
-=Hah=-
Sori bout dat darlins...:p
Eh sak..Biler ah nak May???
Almie will only be back on May 27th...
Siol laaaaa....Peh lamerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....
Nvm...Patience shahila...Patience...

-=| Meetin My Sweethearts Tomorrow!!~~~ |=-

I sooo look 4ward 2 2moro...
Meetin my clan..Once again..Goin back 2 SPF..
Springfest is on...
Tu ahhh..Mcm siak..Biler kiter nyer year(2003)..Dorg cancel...Thanks eh SARS!!!!
Da tak dpt aku show off aku nyer talents in marketin....Kwang Kwang Kwang!~~
Then str8 after dat...Goin 2 the Expo..
My grams got a stall there..Or wadeva shit it is called la...
So..Must support...-=Heh=-
Eh..I'll be able 2 meet my dearest baby cousinnnn..
WoooHoooooooooo!~
Dhani,baby!~~See u 2moro k sayang....
Tak sabar aku nak cubit2 pipi dier yg tembam tuuuu...-=Hah=-

N..N..N..............
Guess who i saw while returnin home frm town??
TRAVISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!~~
A.k.a Morias Shane Joseph...
Siak ahhh..Dier nyer rambut..Makin cantik siol...Mcm Becks nyer hair colour....
He WAS my Sec 4 crush...I was badly crushed by him..-=Heh=-

Alrite...Alrite...Bed time...

*Should i wear my face-mask?*
M-a-l-a-s.

2004-03-26T01:58:00.000+08:00

Only Hitler??HELL NOOO!Only Shahila..
Hail 2 MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!~
-=Errr=-
Alrite..I really need 2 pop anti-depressant tablets into my mouth...
Anyways..Dis thingy bout Hitler..More or less reminded me of school...
Secondary 4......WeEeEeEeEeEeEe!~~~~~~
Mr Singh in particular..-=Heh=- Ok..Haf 2 sleep..2moro..I'm goin out wif abah...
Goin 2 submit my forms 2 Lasalle..Then off we go 2 Far East..
No..No..Not me who wants 2 go there..Its abah laaaaaaaa..
He wants 2 get a new Red Wings boots...Siaoooo...

2004-03-26T01:34:00.000+08:00

Baby..I was thinkin...Maybe if u were 2 get a bike rite..Make it a scoot yah??
-=Heh=-
Well..I'm sure dats nvr goin 2 happen...Coz my sweetheart..Doesnt like bikes...
He prefers..4 wheelers..-=Hah=-
Yes..They're called CARS..:)

2004-03-25T22:09:00.000+08:00

Almie,baby is sooo lucky 2 haf me,u know...-=Heh=-Dun believe???Take a look below..:)

Your a good girl!!!! The one who lives next door
and is cute and sweet. You are Claire Danes.
You love with all you have inside you. Your the
best friend in the world.. and an even better
girlfriend.

Who is your (female)inner-hottie?
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2004-03-25T11:42:00.000+08:00

I'm craazzzyyy...Anyways..Here's sumthin dat will cheer me up..:)

A GARAGE-GURL. Youre into loud music, hot guys and
wild fashions. Youre most at ease when you've
got all your mates around you and you like to
party. Boys are a game and youre always on the
ball because you make sure youre always number
one.
Your virtues: Confidence, fun nature, sociability.
Your flaws: Loudness, jealous tendency, need for
attention..

What kind of girl are you?
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2004-03-25T11:41:00.000+08:00

-=| I'm Still Feelin Sombre |=-

My PC...My luv...-=Sigh=-
I'm also still mad...wif the person who infected my dearie darlin PC..
I haf a feelin dat the person is a guy..A very strong 1..
2 dat bloody arse-hole...
-=GI LANCAPPPPPPPPP SUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA=-
AKU KASI KAU GAMBAR COUPLE TGH MAIN..THEN KAU GI MASOK DALAM BILIK..KAU TGK 2 PIC...LANCAPPPPP SORANG2 AH EH...THEN..KAU DUDOK DALAM SANER..BIAR LAMER2 SIKIT...PAS TU BILER DA NAIK GIAN,U GO FUCK SUM GALS ON THE STREETS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-=Shahila,Dear..Relax Alrite=-
No use gettin angry over dis matter...Like wad Bro Pako always said...
'Eh hello..Dis is juz a freakin PC sia..Dun b so upset bout it..Dun worry..I'll help
u solve dis...N NO,DIS ISNT THE END OF THE WORLD..'

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh..Lantak laaaaaaaaaaaaa...

2004-03-25T03:15:00.000+08:00

-=| I'll Be Out For A While |=-

Depressed is the correct werd 2 describe how i'm feelin now...Whoah...
Wait...Or rather..There isnt seem 2 b any word 2 describe how i feel..
Totally,i mean...Alrite..Here's the announcement...

I wont be able 2 log on into MSN,IRC or any other applications...
Coz u guys wanna know wad???
Becozzzzzz..My pc went BERSERK!!!!!...
Aku punyer la sakit hatiii!!!..Gadoh dgn almie pun tak gini terok sakkk....
Seriously...I was really...Scared...Afraid...Frightened...(basically..all the werds mean
the same)
I honestly..Didnt know where i actually got dat motherfucker-sunnavagun virus....
Sakkkk ahhh..Really...Not a slight idea..
Maybe sum jerk-ass who hates me...
-=Sigh=-
So rite now..I cant go 2 any applications...Except internet explorer...
N dat is y..I would still b able 2 blog..
Any updates bout myself..U guys can juz tune in here(-=Whoah=-speakin like a radio
dj..:P)
N thanks also..2 my broooo...Pakoooo..Gracias eh...Merci eh...
-=Heh=-
Kalau tak kerana dier...I think my pc will get more infected...Can even damage the hard-disk...
N 2 the person whom infected my pc wif the virus....Got 3 werds 4 u...
-= ISAP AH EHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! =-
-=Sigh=-
Its ok,shahila..Its not the end of the world...=>
Rite now..I haf 2 really talk 2 my mom...
I need a technician...Bro Pako is tryin 2 look 4 1..Seriously eh bro..
I dunno how 2 repay u sak...
Nvm..Nanti 1 day...When ur free...N i've got my pay..I shall gif u a treat...
Maybe lunch at Swensens??Perhaps.:)

-=| Another Hilarious Story.Errr.By Yan |=-

Alrite..Haf dis issue...Haf 2 write it in here..-=KNN=-
Its soooo funny...Maybe 2 me only..-=Hah=-
Anyways...Juz now..At ard..Errr...10pm? or slightly later...
Me n Yan were havin mama's home-made roti kirai...
Its was ok 4 me..Coz i'm not exactly a fan of roti kirai...-=Heh=-
We ate 2gether...On the same plate..-=Ishk=-
I was lazy 2 take another plate laaaaaaaa...:P
So there we were..Eatin...Then..Came the topic..Bout 1 of Yan's school's canteen
vendor...
She was..Errrrmmmm..Kinda big-size la..No offence 2 her..But dis story juz cracked
me up...
Yan:Kak..Tadi kan biler aku(i dunno but he uses 'aku' when talkin 2 her kakak..-=ish=-
yer la..aku kan adik2 dier..:P)tgh nak order mkn..Si gemok 2 ader tau...
Me(Was enthusiastically savourin mama's kari ayam):Ah..Abeh??Kau nak aku buat per?
Yan:Takde la..Then kan..Mak dier pun ader skali..Tgh layan customer jugak...Then teka ah..
Me:-Rolled my eyes-
Yan:Ok..Ok...Skali kan..Si gemok 2..Tah aper kene..Tros mcm...Aku raser dier penat..Then dier nak manja dier mak dier..Dier tros sandarkan kepala dier pat mak
dier nyer bahu..
Me:Soooooooooooo????????????
Yan:Aku tgk kan kak...Mak dier nyer bahu..Mcm nak ROBOH..!!!!
Me(Was already chokin like 1 hell of a sick freak):Babi ah kau Yannn...!!!
-= We laughed like 2 sick maniacs =-

Inspite of all dat haf happened...I was still disturbed by the condition of my pc ah...
But sumthin cheered me up..A msg from my baby,almie..Dis was it....

-=For As Long As We've Been Together,=-
-=I've Had No Regrets.=-
-=In Fact I Wake Up Each Day,=-
-=Thankin God For Bringin Us Together=-
-=Whatever I Do In Life Is Now For Us;For You=-
-=I love You,Sayang=-

Wahhhhh Pianggggggggggggggggg ehhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!
I was frm a state of dispair..Tros became CAIR sakkkk...
Thanks,sweetheart..U know i feel the same bout u..:)
Always will...

Alritey..B4 i leave..Dis is how low i'm feelin..Feel like breakin down n cry my hearts out....Here's the picture..I'm enclosin it 2 u guys..

2004-03-23T02:13:00.000+08:00
-=|I'm Goin Nutsssssssssssssssssss|=-

U know..It seemed funny..I mean...I haf a wonderful family...A luvin bf...A bunch
of magnificent frens..A cool school...But yet..I'm still NOT TOO HAPPY..
It feels as though..There's sumthin missin..Like a missed link..U know wad i mean...
Its creepy..Seriously...Sumtimes..I feel like..I want 2 live on my own..
No frens..No family..No bfs..No internet...No nothin..
Juz me,myself n i..N perhaps a gd book..
I wanna live on top of a mountain..Far,far away frm the city...
Great ambiance...N dun worry...I'll cum back when i'm ready...

-=Sigh=-
Wads the meanin of dis eh?
Ok..i'm givin u the same answer..'Tah laaa..Aku pun tak braper pastiii..'
Wait..I haf a story..U know..Juz now..The Ismails(my whole family laaa..step
mcm prg putihhhhh...:P) were at the dinner table..Discussin bout sum stuff..
I wasnt listenin coz i was bz enjoyin my cup of tea..Then of coz..
My dearest brother..Had 2 cocked out a stooopid line..N thanks 2 him..
I choke while sippin my warm Lipton tea...Dis was how it went..

Yan(my bro):Abah..Bole tak carik kan yan kayu?
Abah:Kayu??Buat aper????
Yan:Takde..Yan ader project malayu..Then kene carik kayu la..
-=Dis part i can still take it-=
Abah:Ohhh..
Yan:Org lain sumer kene carik lain bender ah...Yan volunteer carik kayu...
Me:Eh..Yg kau pandai2 volunteer carik kayu asal ah??
-=Dis part..KNN..Stooopidddd-=
Yan(Bual dgn semangat dan confident):SEBAB DULU ABAH PERNA BAWAK BALIK KAYU..JADIK YAN CKP LA DGN KWN2 YG YAN BOLE DPTKAN KAYU..THRU ABAH..
-=Wahahahahhahaha=-
Ader ke patut dier ckp dier nak volunteer juz coz dulu abah perna bawak balik kayu??
K-siao siak dier...Lepak ah kau,yannn...Yg tak bley angz eh biler dier tgh bual tau..Mcm
yer yer siak..Ahahaha..

-=Erm=-
Surprisinly..I'm feelin betta now..-=Hmmm=-Dunno y...
See la..My life is pretty complicated...N..I must say also...Unpredictable..
Anythin can happen..U name..It sure can...
Haiyah...Go sleep la,shahila...Dun talk crap here..Go..Go...

Wait..Almie..I love u,dude!~N pls..Cum back soon..I'm missin u like hell already...
*sobs*...
Alrite..I REALLY need 2 sleep...Adios!~

2004-03-23T01:19:00.000+08:00

You have a surprise kiss! Your partner is always
pleasantly pleased to have you jump outta no
where to dote them with a fun peck on the cheek
or more passionate embrace. super markets and
work places are your favorite places to attack
your loved one with all your love =p

What kind of kiss are you?
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2004-03-23T01:14:00.000+08:00

Posers suck and I hate them. I wish they would all
die.

Are You A Poser?
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2004-03-22T14:40:00.000+08:00
-=|What A Mornin!|=-

3 werds...I Am Boredddddd....-=Sigh=-
Wads happenin 2 me eh?Tahh..Aku pun tak tahu ah ehhhhhh...
Dis mornin was ok..Mom didnt naggg..Amin!~
If usually...She will go like..'Nurrrr..bangunn...da pukol braper tuuu...anak dara bangun
lambat2 ehhhh..bangun2....pegi kemassssss...'
Tell u sumthin..Its very damn..freakin..friggin..flyin...flamin...IRRITATIN ALRITE!~
I know..I know..She's my mom...But still!!!!
She can at least wake me up more gently wadddddddddddddd.......
-=Sigh=-

Anyways..She didnt shrieked dis mornin..So..Its was ok...
Alrite..I haf a story 2 share..
U know..I was bz sweepin my room..God..My room ah...KNN..
So 'clean'..
-=Heh=-
At the same time..I was as always..Day-dreamin..Thinkin..
'Anak raja maner eh nak kawin dgn aku nantiiii...'etc..etc..-=Hah=-
I also blasted the radio..Hilangkan stress laaaa kater kan....
Then...I heard my mom..'Eh nur!Kwn kau ni...Klua kat tv..'
I was thinkin..'Kwn maner sak?Aku nyer kwn sumer tak bley masok tv..Confirm
bankrupt nanti 2 channellll..Buang current jek....'
-=Heh=-
No offence k guys..
I str8 went over 2 her room..N HOLY COWWWWWW!~
Its non other than Azrina Ahmad...
'Biler maser siak tu azrina jadik kwn akuuuu...'
Strange eh..Anyway..-=Ish=-
Dat Azrina girl..Da maju sakkkk..Masok tv malaysiaaa...TV3...
The way she talked ah..Like..The 's' tersendattttttt..
Wakakakakak..Serious..N she looks..-=Whoah=-
Whoah,in a bad way laaaa..
-=Heh=-
1st things 1st..She aint got the look...I told my mom dat..
N u know wad her reply was?
She said..'Memang..Mama tgk dier pun..Mcm tak seleraaaa..'
Kwang Kwang Kwang!~
-=Awww=-
Dats harsh mommy..
Ok..Takmo merepek k,shahila???
Alritey..Wanna sleep..See u buggers soonnnn!~

2004-03-22T02:35:00.000+08:00

-=Laurent Blanc Is His Name=-

Well...Dats him..Wif Mr Zidane..-=Heh=-
It was love at 1st sight 4 me.I was crazy over...
Him...Reason???-=Erm=-
I haf no idea...-=Haha=-
But 1 thing 4 sure..Lovin him..Was never unpleasant...
He didnt make me cry...Or stressed up...
My love 4 him was outta-dis-world...
But hey..He was juz my idol..A guy whom i looked up 2...
4 ur info..I like weird lookin males...-=Err=-
Becoz???I dunno..I haf a fetish 4 the weirdos,i guess...
Oh well...He was my REEL-LIFE...
Almie..Is my REAL-LIFE...
Period.

-=Boy Do I Miss The Good Old Days=-

2004-03-21T00:39:00.000+08:00

-=I'll Make Love To You,Baby=-

2004-03-20T23:58:00.000+08:00
-=Finally Received The Long Awaited Letter From Lasalle-SIA=-

Oh my goddd!~I'm soooo contented...Jubilant..Over the freakin moon...
Reason bein?Well...I got the letter from my college(cheyy..college kapeeee?!)
-=Haha-=I read it already..Kinda scary..It was stated there dat..I can further my
course..4 another year...Which means...It will take me altogether 4 years in there...
N i'll graduate wif a Bachelor of Arts (Hons) Design.Cool huh??If worse cum 2
worse..I'll still be able 2 graduate in my 3rd year..Wif a Undergraduate Diploma...
Kinda confusin rite??Well..Tell me bout it..-=Hehe=-

-=Course Will Commence On Monday,5 July 2004=-

Hmmm..Let me see...I'll be sittin at home..4...-=Erm=-..
Another 107 DAYS!!!!~!!!!
-=KNN=-..Pretty frustratin alrite..
I wanna get a part-time job,my folks wont let me...
-=Sigh=-..Nevermind..I'm sure they've got their reasons 4 doin so..
Parents know best..:)

-=Went To Meet Up Wif The Lads=-

Today was ok..Went slackin wif my dearies..They know who they r...
Esplanade was our usual haunt..
It was friggin hot..N i really mean hot..-=CCB=-
After dat..Met up wif my family...
As per normal..Went 2 Tampines Mall..-=Sigh=-
I'm actually gettin bored of dat place..But hell..Dat was where i grew up..
There's no place like home!~
-=Hehe=-

-=Bought A New Pair Of Levis=-

WooooHooooooooooo!~
Abah gave me a green liteeeeeeeeee!~
He said,'Nur,Awk pegi pilih which 1 u like..'
N me..Bein me..I wasted no time..Headed str8 2 the Type-1 section..
Been aimin 4 dat 4 a long time...
-=Ishk=-
Finally bought 1..Costed me bout..110 Buckaroossssss...
-=Hell Yeah=-
But its ok..School's startin anyway..Must buy losta clothes..I mean..
I need uniforms NO MORE..Yipeeeeee...-=Hehe=-

-=Yan Bought A New Adidas Sneakers=-

-=Arghhhhhhh=-
I'm always jealous of him..His shoes dat he got..Damn nice..
Well..His school(Temasek Sec) allows sports shoes..
Dats y he's dyin 2 get 1..
-=Ishk=-
But its perfectly alrite..His shoe size n mine..R sorta the same..
*winks evily*
U know wad i'm gonna do..-=Heh=-

Oh well..I'm dead beat..Guess i'll be headin str8 2 my comfy bed..
Till later sweetheartssss..
-=Chaoz=-

2004-03-20T02:49:00.000+08:00
-=HighLite Of ThE DaY=-

Mama:Eh nur..Itu hari abg imann ader ckp..Computer kiter ader bubble eh?
Me:Aper bubble ah ma?
Yan:Bubble??Bkn bubble laaaaaaaaaaaa....
Yan:Its a BUGGGGGGGGGG!~

2004-03-19T02:33:00.000+08:00
Seriously..I dun really get myself these days..Like now..I dun even know...
Y i'm friggin bloggin at a freakin 2.35 in the mornin...Ok..Dat sorta rhymes..
Haha..-=sigh=-..Dis is killin me...I dun know wad..But its there..
N wantin 2 kill me..-=ish=-..Unbelievable..I haf no idea y i'm behavin like dis..
Maybe post-pms..But hell!!!~..My period ended..Days ago!!..-=Goddammit=-
Moodswings??Yeah rite!~U know wad..I think i need a holiday...Not in s'pore though..
Hehe..But the issue is..I DO NOT OWN A PASSPORT!!~~..
Frustratin enuff...-=sigh=-..

N hell!!!!School starts only in 2 months+++ time...
Wad the hell r the ppl in MOE thinkin???!!!~~~-=Sons-of-a-gun=-
N 2 u MR THARMAN SHANMUGARATNAM..Wad in the name of GOD were u thinkin???
Combinin EM1s wif the EM2s???
Durin my time..Streamin was an important aspect..It was ages ago,by the way...
When u manage 2 enter EM1..Ppl sorta haf dis mind-set dat...Ur smart...
So u can imagine..How my batch felt..Or rather..How i felt..
Damn U!~
EM2 means..Basically..Ur juz an average kiddo..-=sigh=-
Wads happenin 2 dis fucked up world...
1st,its the education system...Wads next???Its compulsory 2 be married at 18..???
Perhaps???????-=Nevermind=-But cum 2 think of it..It'll be fun..Gettin married at 18..
-=haha=-

Ok..Sumbody...Shoot me pls...

2004-03-17T02:18:00.000+08:00
Sighhh...I really dunno wads goin on...I'm lost...
Oh Allah..Pls show me the lite...
I dun wanna be lost like dis..I'm scared...
Gif sum inspirations...
N 2 u...Y now??????????????

2004-03-13T22:44:00.000+08:00
Ok..I 1st heard dis song at my granny's place..
Dis afternoon..My grandad was singin n dancin 2 dis song..
So u peepz might haf guessed it rite..Its an oldies song..
R-E-T-R-O Hit!~

OH CAROL
by Smokie

Well, I was out cruisin', getting late and I was losing
When I saw you walkin' my way
So nonchalant, I bet you get what you want
So do I, and I ain't losing today
Well your hips were swinging and your jeans were clinging
You were driving me out of my mind
On a hot afternoon when there's nothing to do
You're not the sort of thing a fellow should find
So I pulled on over, you tossed your hair off your shoulder
As you turned and you looked my way
Ahh you would have died, you'd have skinned me alive
If I'd said what I wanted to say
So being polite, I said "Whatcha doin' tonight?"
You said "It just so happens I'm free"
You got all the right curves and all the right words
And that's all right by me

Oh Carol, you got me eatin' my heart away
You got me counting my nights and days
Oh I'm floating on the milky way
Oh Carol, nobody done it before
Oh baby you've opened the door
Oh Carol you can do it some more
Well if you're ready for this, when we started to kiss
She said "Hold on a minute or two"
Well naturally I knew it couldn't be me
I said "Babe, what's troublin' you?"
She said "I'm not sixteen, if you know what I mean"
So we sat and we talked for a while
When we finally kissed, you know she didn't resist
And I must say she did it with style

*Well, I was out cruisin', getting late and I was losing
When I saw you walkin' my way
So nonchalant, I bet you get what you want
So do I, and I ain't losing today*

Oh Carol, you got me eating my heart away
You got me counting my nights and days
Oh I'm floating on the milky way
Oh Carol, nobody's done it before
Oh baby, you've opened the door
Oh Carol, you can do it some more

Oh Carol, baby, you can do it some more
Oh Carol, baby, you can do it some more
Oh Carol, baby, you can do it some more
Oh Carol, baby, you can do it some more
Oh Carol, baby, you can do it some more

2004-03-12T23:17:00.000+08:00
Had a 1 hell of a ride dis week..Been really fantabulous...
Let see...Wad did i do on monday..Hmmm..Ok2..Maybe i
should start wif last sunday...I met mon cherie!!!
I missed him so,so,so much...I luv him even more...
More than i luv dave beckham..Hehe...We went ard town...
Ate at a chocoloate bar...I ate sumthin...It looked like a...
Errrr...Muffin...But the inside..Is all 'occupied' wif...
Melted,thick,rich chocolate...I didnt finish it..Surprisin rite...
Hehe..It was damn fillin...

Tell u peepz wad..I'll juz jot down wad i did yesterday...
Malas la..Hehe..

Ok..Yesterday..I went out wif my baby..Actually...It wasnt
planned...It juz happened kinda thingy...Met him at Bedok
Interchange..As usual..I was late..Hehe..Sorry sweetie..
I'm a gal remember??Heh..Anyway...We went 2 haf lunch
at Parkway's BK..I had Whopper...Huishhh..It was..
BIG...Ish..N i actually finished it...Tsk..N when we were
about 2 eat..The place where we were sittin...Flooded...
KNN..I was already starvin..Then the manager told us 2
shift 2 the other side of the restaurant..I told baby dat i didnt want 2 move..But he insisted..Sayang punyer pasal...
I did...

After dat...We went 2 town..By bus..Can u believe???
Well..I did spend sumtime alone wif almie...
Went over 2 Borders..Kinokuniya..He wanted 2 find a book..
Bout speed readin..Weird rite??Hehe..
He didnt manage 2 find it..So..Nevermind....

N guess wad????N no..Not becoz its CAIR la..
We went 2 catch a movie...Haha..So wads great bout dat?
Every1 catches movies..I Know..But we watched a cool flick..
THE BUTTERFLY EFFECT..
Wow..Its juz E-N-T-E-R-T-A-I-N-I-N-G..
Ashton Kutcher..Is of coz...Dashin..Gorgeous..Gd-lookin...
Handsome..Cum 2 think of it..He looks like my almie..
Serious...2 my eyes la...n most of the romantic line he said..
Strangely..Almie has said them 2 me b4..Awesome kan??
So now..U peepz know how romantic my almie is..
Heheh..Ok..I'm braggin..

Then of coz..We went home...Tired..Dead beat...So yeah..
Dat was wad we did..Not much..But havin spent time
2gether..Was juz enuff...I LUV HIM..

2004-03-11T02:26:00.000+08:00
LEAVE ME ALONE
By The Corrs

I'm alone, hiding in the dark
I'm looking for a life
To come and rescue me
I sleep, I rise
Hear your denies
Endlessly inside
It's crazy but

(sometimes I feel like)
I wanna' to run away
(sometimes I feel like)
I've gotta' get away
(One day you will see)
Another side of me
(My life I command)
It's not the way that you planned

Leave me alone (leave me alone)
Leave me alone
Out on my own (out on my own)
Leave me alone

What do you want from me
Do you dream of a life
Your life through me
Myself, my time
In one we unite
I don't ever want to be
That girl you want it to be

(Sometimes I feel like)
I wanna' to run away
(Sometimes I feel like)
I've gotta' get away
(One day you will see)
Another side of me
(My life I command)
It's not the way that you planned

Leave me alone (leave me alone)
Leave me alone
Out on my own (out on my own)
Leave me alone, yeah.....

(One day you will see)
Another side of me
My life I command
It's not the way
It's not the way that you planned

Leave me alone (leave me alone)
Leave me alone
Out on my own (out on my own)
Leave me alone
Leave me alone (leave me alone)
Leave me alone
Out on my own (out on my own)
Leave me alone
Leave me alone (leave me alone)
Leave me alone
Out on my own (out on my own)
Leave me alone

Juz leave me..ALONE...Dun haf 2 care bout me...As long as ur happy...ur mom's happy...ur family's happy...i'm out of the question.I'm an outsider...But i'll be happy 4 u.Dun worry.........................

2004-03-11T00:41:00.000+08:00
When everythin is goin smoothly...SUMTHIN
MUST get in the way..Y??????
Baby...I know dis isnt ur fault...At all...But i juz feel dat...
We should take a break...Juz 2 make ur mom feel better....
N i also think..We dun haf 2 meet as well...U juz spend the
time wif ur family...Family cums 1st...Remember???
So yeah...I dun want becoz of me,u haf conflicts wif ur mom...

Plus..If we go out..Most of the time...U'll be payin..So...
Dat'll make it even worse...Ur mom cares 4 u..N ur money..
I guess...Its juz natural 4 her 2 feel dat way...
We juz msg each other..In dat way..I'm payin..Ur payin as well..
Both payin..

I feel bad u know..Becoz of me..U get nagged at...
I'm sorry ok dearie...I'll gif in...Follow ur mom's way..
Dat's the best...Afterall..She's ur mom...

2004-03-06T00:53:00.000+08:00

2004-03-06T00:24:00.000+08:00
Dedicate dis song 2 mon cherie..Almie darlin..Talk 2 u 2moro..

I'M STILL IN LOVE WITH YOU
By Sean Paul Feat. Sasha

Well in comes di ting dem call di broken heart
This blessed love will never part
Yuh dun know it's from the start mi tell dem seh a Dutty Yeah!!
A Sean Paul and Sasha, come sing for dem baby

Though you make me holla boy you make me sweat I can get your tenderness
Still I can't get you off my mind
What is it about you baby?

A just di Dutty Dutty love

I'm still in love with you boy

So girl just try to understand that a man is just a man
Dat's the Dutty Dutty love

I'm still in love with you boy

Well I'm a hustler and a playa and you know I'm not a staya
Dat's di Dutty Dutty love

I'm still in love with you boy

So girl just try to understand that a man is just a man
Dat's the Dutty Dutty love

I'm still in love with you boy

Just di lovin from di start plus you know we hard to par
Dat's di way I give my love

I'm still in love with you boy, yes I'm still in love with you

What a man, gotta do, what a man, gotta do oooh oooh oooh oooh

Girl, well I never have fi promise wid nuh bling bling fah oooh yuh girl
Well a Dutty lovin weh mi fling fling control yuh girl
And I mek yuh head swirl, and I mek yuh body twirl
And I mek yuh wanna be my one and only baby girl
Night after night mi give good love fi keep yuh warm
Gal yuh neva get this kinda lovin from yuh born
I know yuh waan draw card seh mi just caan perform

I love you baby!!!

A true yuh get di likkle lovin and mi gone

You don't know how to love me (Oooh oooh oooh)

I and I have nuh time fi nuh kissin and charm

Not even how to kiss me (Ah ah ah)

A true mi tek yuh likkle heart by storm

I don't know why!

Baby girl

I love you baby!

A Dutty Dutty Dutty love

I'm still in love with you boy

Well I'm a hustler and a playa and you know I'm not a staya
Dat's di Dutty Dutty love

I'm still in love with you boy

So girl a can't you understand that a man is just a man
Dat's the Dutty Dutty love

I'm still in love with you boy

Di blessed lovin from di start plus you know we hard to par
Dat's di way I give my love

I'm still in love with you boy, yes I'm still in love with you

Yo! What a man, gotta do, what a man, gotta do oooh girl!

Hey, a true mi give har good love and seh bye bye bye
Mi tun around she ask di question why why why
When mi leave and mi see di gal a cry cry cry
And it hurt my heart fi tell a lie lie lie
So don't cry no more, baby girl for sure
Just remember di good times we had before

I love you baby!!!

A true yuh get di likkle lovin and mi gone

You don't know how to love me (Oooh oooh oooh)

I and I have nuh time fi nuh kissin and charm

Not even how to kiss me (Ah ah ah)

A true mi tek yuh likkle heart by storm

I don't know why!

Hey baby girl

I love you baby!

A Dutty Dutty Dutty love

I'm still in love with you boy

Well I'm a hustler and a playa and you know I'm not a staya
Dat's di Dutty Dutty love

I'm still in love with you boy

So girl a can't you understand that a man is just a man
Dat's the Dutty Dutty love

I'm still in love with you boy

Di blessed lovin from di start plus you know we hard to par
Dat's di way I give my love

I'm still in love with you boy, yes I'm still in love with you

Yo! What a man, gotta do, what a man, gotta do oooh girl!

2004-03-04T02:28:00.000+08:00
Been stonin ard lately..Wait..I've always did..
LoL..Well..I'm thinkin hard..On wad when wrong between...
Me & him..Oh..U guys surely know who i'm talkin about..
Not him..But him..Haha...Now all of u r confused..Let it be then..
So..My guess is..I'm better off bein single..U know wad i mean..
Plus..I'm only 16..Long way 2 go...Gotta finish my diploma...
Get a stable job..Only then...I can find THE ONE...
Until then..I'll TRY 2 be single..Haha..

Chatted wif HIM juz now...Gosh...
Was i smilin all the way?Hell i did!!~~~
Coz he said..'Dankie Shahila'..
Dun really know wad language he used..But dat meant...
'Thanks'...
'Thanks Shahila'...
Whoahhh..He remembered my name..
Well..after wad i did 2 him..He MUST haf remembered..
U guys know wad i'm sayin...rite???
Haha...Ok..I'm off 2 bed...*Yawns*
I shall be sleepin wif a huge smile..
N dream of HIM...Not him,him..But HIM..
Buena Nocheas!~

2004-03-04T02:10:00.000+08:00
I fell in luv wif dis song when i 1st heard it...

THROUGH THE WIRE
By Kanye West

Yo G they can't stop me from rapping can they?
Can that huh?
I spit it through the wire man
To much stuff on my heart right now man
I'll probably risk it all right now
It's a life or death situation man
Y'all don't really understand how I feel right now man
It's your boy Kayne to the....
Chi-Town what's going on man

[Verse 1]
I drink a boost for breakfast, an intro for dizzert
Somebody ordered pancakes I just sip the sizzurp
That right there could drive a sane man bizzurp
Not to worry the Mr. H says that the izzles back wizzerk
How can you console my mom or give her life support
When you telling her your sons' on life support
And just imagine how my girl feel
On the plane scared as hell that her guy look like Ed Mitill
She was with me before the deal she been trying to be mine
She a delta so she been throwing them Donahue signs
I'm use to trying to reline
I been trying to resign
Trying to be a millionaire
How I use two lifelines
In the same hospital where BIG and Tupac died
The doctor said I had blood clots
But I ain't your nigga man
Story on MTV and I ain't trying to make a band
I swear this right here is history in the making man

I really apologize how I sound right now man
This ain't fair at all man
They got my mouth wired shut for like I don't know the doctor said for like six weeks
You know we had reconstru....
I had reconstructive surgery on my jaw
Looked in the mirror half my jaw was missing and half my mouth
I couldn't believe it
But im still here for yall right now yo
This is what I gotta say yo
Yeah, turn me up yeah

[Verse 2]
What if somebody from the shadow was ill got a deal on the hottest rap label around
But he wasn't talking bout coke and birds it was more like spoken word
Except he really putting it down
And he explained the story about how blacks came from glory
And what we need to do in the game
Good dude, Bad night, Right place, Wrong time
In the blink of an eye his whole life changed
If you could feel how my face felt you would know how Mase felt
Thank God I ain't to cool for the safe belt
I swear to God drive two on the sue
I got lawyer for the case to keep my safe book safe
My dawgs couldn't tell if I
I look Tom Cruise on Vanilla Sky
All they heard was in accident like GEICO
They thought I was burnt up like Pepsi did Michael
I must gotta angel
Cause look how death missed his ass
Unbreakable, would you thought they called me Mr. Glass
Look back on my life like the ghost of Christmas past
Toys R Us where I used to spend that Christmas cash
And I still wont grow up, I'm a grown ass kid
Swear I should be locked up for stupid shit that I did
But I'm a champion, so I turned tragedy to triumph
Make music that's fire, spit my soul through the wire

Know what im saying
When the doctor told me I had a um.. I was goin to have a plate on my chin
I said dawg don't you think didn't you realize I'll never make it on the plane now
Its bad I got all this jewelry on
Can't be serious man

2004-03-03T23:23:00.000+08:00
ARE YOU GONNA BE MY GIRL
By Jet

So 1,2,3, tell me how to count to 3
because you look so fine
and i really wanna make you mine.

I say you look so fine
that I really wanna make you mine.

Oh, 4,5,6 c'mon and get your kicks
now you dont need that money
when you look like that, do ya honey.

Big black boots,
long brown hair,
she's so sweet
with her get back stare.

Well I could see,
you home with me,
that you were with another man, yea!
I know well,
and god must have said,
before I let you get away, yea!
I said, are you gonna be my girl?

Well, so 1,2,3, tell me how to count to 3
because you look so fine
and i really wanna make you mine.

I say you look so fine
that I really wanna make you mine.

Oh, 4,5,6 c'mon and get your kicks
now you dont need that money
with a face like that, do ya.

Big black boots,
long brown hair,
she's so sweet
with her get back stare.

Well I could see,
you home with me,
that you were with another man, yea!
I know well,
and god must have said,
before I let you get away, yea!
I said, are you gonna be my girl?

Oh yea. Oh yea. C'mon!
I could see,
you home with me,
that you were with another man, yea!
I know well,
and god must have said,
before I let you get away, yea!
Uh, be my girl.
Be my girl.
Are you gonna be my girl?! Yea.

2004-03-03T00:38:00.000+08:00
WeeeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEEEEE!~

2004-03-03T00:33:00.000+08:00
I so luv my new lay-out...hehe...

2004-03-02T00:59:00.000+08:00
Dis song haf been buggin me 4 past few days...Love it 2 bits...

MUNGKIN
by Anuar Zain

Biarkanlah saja diriku sendirian tanpamu
Biarkanlah saja diriku sepi tanpa kata
Bukan maksud untuk membisu
Sepi tanpa kata
Terpisahnya kita kerana mengejar impian

KORUS:
Mungkinkan bersama
Dua jiwa ini
Dalam mencari cinta sejati(nan suci)
Mungkinkah segala derita di jiwa
Akan terubat jua akhirnya

Biarkanlah saja diriku
Sendirian tanpamu
Terpisahnya kita kerana
Mengejar impian

(Ulang korus)

Hanya satu pintaku
Sabarlah menanti
Ku kan pulang bersama cinta

2004-02-28T23:32:00.000+08:00
NOT IN LOVE
by Enrique Iglesias

Are you Ready

You call me on the phone
I act like nothing's going on
We're Driving In My Car
I pretend that you don't turn me on
Ah Ah Ah
You Sexy Thing
Yeah You Know It
Yeah
Ah Ah Ah
You Move Around Now You Show It

I'm Not In Love
It's Just A Phase That I'm Going Through
I'm Always Looking For Something New
But Don't Go Running Away

It's Almost 3 a.m.
I'm Hoping That You Don't Let Go
You're Moving In So Close
I'm Trying Not To Lose Control

Ah Ah Ah
You Sexy Thing
Yeah You Know It Yeah
Ah Ah Ah
You Move Around Now You Show It
(Come On)

I'm Not In Love
It'S Just A Phase That I'm Going Through
I'm Always Looking For Something New
But Don't Go Running Away
Aww!
Oh I'm Not In Love
I Try To Tell Myself All The Time
I Just Can't Help How I Feel Tonight
So Don't Go Running Away

Im Not In Love (Yeah Yeah)
I'm Not In Love
I'm Not In Love (Give It To Me Now)
I'm Not In Love (Break It Down)

Ah Ah Ah
You Sexy Thing
Yeah You Know It
Ah Ah Ah
You Move Around
Yeah You Show It

I'm Not In Love
It's Just A Phase That I'm Going Through
I'm Always Looking For Something New
But Don't Go Running Away

Oh I'm Not In Love
I Try To Tell Myself All The Time
I Just Can't Help How I Feel Tonight
So Don'T Go Running Away
(I'm not in love)
(I'm not in love)

2004-02-27T12:52:00.000+08:00
TRY
by Nelly Furtado

All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try

I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try

All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love

2004-02-25T01:42:00.000+08:00
I'M GOOD
by Blaque

Yeah
Uh huh
New Blaque
Darckchild, Darkchizzle
The jump off

Is it true that im the one making you nervous?
Trying real hard as if im for show shit
By you and your crew, that's helpless
You saw that X5, that's me out side
I know you, kinda seem so confused
You cant understand how my diamonds bling through
But its cool its true, its unusual
A girl so fly out shining a guy

We can talk about this, lets talk about it
We can talk about this, don't think about it
About me on the floor, that's what I came here for
So pump ya breaks it seem as if ya wantin' more

It aint me, im sorry you got the wrong one
It aint me, I just came out to have fun
It aint me, go out and find another one
I don't like what your kickin' son, now leave

Cause even if I leave alone, I'm good
And even if you come along, I'm good
Don't mean a thing to me cause, I'm good
With or without you
If you wanna play games with me then, I'm good
Say what you do for me than, I'm good
You don't really mean a thing cause, I'm good
With or without you

I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good

Playas please, please stop frontin'
I don't know when Benz started makin Isuzu's
But its new, cause I do what I do
Which causes me not to be needin' you
When I leave, I got a crib to go to
That I got myself straight out of high school
So if you comin' at me, be ready
Cause there aint no way imma let somebody play me

We can talk about this, lets talk about it
We can talk about this, don't think about it
About me on the floor, that's what I came here for
So pump ya breaks it seem as if ya wantin' more

It ain't me, im sorry you got the wrong one
It ain't me, I just came out to have fun
It ain't me, go out and find another one
I don't like what your kickin' son, now leave

Cause even if I leave alone, I'm good
And even if you come along, I'm good
Don't mean a thing to me cause, I'm good
With or without you
If you wanna play games with me then, I'm good
Say what you do for me than, I'm good
You don't really mean a thing cause, I'm good
With or without you

I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good

[Rap]
Yo, im only Clyde if you clip me
And I still got ice even if you aint wit me
Candy paint and I still bump Biggie
Halter, throwback, ripped up dickies
Ya hate me cause I am nice up on the mic
I'm twice the size of rice
My flow keepin 'em right
Brain dead you need cents like 50
Cause wont you to love me like Bobby and Whitney
No

Cause even if I leave alone, I'm good
And even if you come along, I'm good
Don't mean a thing to me cause, I'm good
With or without you
If you wanna play games with me then, I'm good
Say what you do for me than, I'm good
You don't really mean a thing cause, I'm good
With or without you

Cause even if I leave alone, I'm good
And even if you come along, I'm good
Don't mean a thing to me cause, I'm good
With or without you
If you wanna play games with me then, Im good
Say what you do for me than, I'm good
You don't really mean a thing cause, Im good
With or without you

I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good
I'm good I'm good without you
I'm good I'm good

I'm good !